Campur Aduk

Move blog

2008-07-03T10:16:00.001+08:00

I decided to move my blog to http://je7ca.multiply.com/

Fitness again

2008-07-01T19:29:00.000+08:00

Today I go again for the fitness at California Fitness. This time, I felt easier to walk longer hour in the running machine. Last time is 20 mins, this time is 25 mins and will keep increasing, hoho.... At the first 15 mins, my leg was so tired, felt like it's going to be broken. But then, it became easier and nice, then I tried to run for the last 5 mins, but I only can tahan for about 2 mins haha, then start walk again, then suddenly the machine blacked out. All 4 machines is a row. So I had to stop without cooling down. And when i came down from the machine, I felt dizzy haha...

This time I tried the steam room for the 1st time of my life! It's 50 degree celcius, and it's hazy inside. At first I felt there is perhaps something wrong with the place, perhaps they put the temperature too high so it became hazy. But I found inside, there were 2 ladies. So it should be normal then. Haha....I don't know that it is a steam room, that's why it's steamy. I thought it was sauna. Hahha.... I was sweating alot inside without doing nothing, I am wondering how much calories I can burn inside the steam room.

Then we try this cafe nextdoor, since they had 15% off for california discount, so we decided to try there. It's a totally organic cafe with all organic food. Since I want to complete my day with healthy lifestyle, so I decided to eat salad, with organic honey, JH also ordered another salad. Then I drank ice herbal slimming tea with organic honey. You know what, the tea taste like JAMU, and the salad, it's not nice! And it was expensive somemore. We spend $26.

In the afternoon, we already ate Ichiban Boshi as well, I spent almost $15 for my food. I was ordering this something claypot with gyoza and rice-cawan mushi set. The claypot is very nice. JH ordered curry chicken, I felt it just taste normal curry and nothing special and cost him $12.

After the lunch, I decided to wait for JH at the Mc D at Centerpoint and reading few books there. Then when I went to toilet and pass through Ichiban Boshi, actually they had so called Happy hour from 3-5pm, it'll cost you $5 for a bowl of udon and cawan mushi!! Wow what an offer, but it's too late, I had full and nobody will accompany me to eat at such an odd hour. Everyone is working!!!!! Except me.... But it's ok, I am enjoying myself anyway. Let me update you later about the book I read. It made me contemplate about my goal in my life, which I still don't have it.

OREO

2008-07-01T05:50:00.000+08:00

I love oreo strawberry. The taste is just nice. They only have this in Indonesia I think.

Contemplating

2008-07-01T05:10:00.000+08:00

I was contemplating of what had happened yesterday. The interview question kept repeating in my head and I kept regretting to answer the questions. I was so tense, like I always do. And I can't bluff people with answers that they want to hear. I always answer it honestly, really very honest, until I felt that I am so stupid. Or it is because I am too confidence that they will accept me, until I saw another girl they pick up for the candidates. Hix, I was shock.

The night and 2 nights before I was so stress and try to read all the textbooks and my old FYP as well as my attachment. I am to stress until I try not too think about it by watch TV until very late, wake up the next day very late, so that I don't think much. But still, I am not improving at all my interview skill.

My Interview today

2008-06-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

I was having a job interview today, it was lasted for about 45 mins, then one of Yoli's friend invited me for her tea-session farewell party. The tea break was fun, everyone is young and energetic, haha, I feel young again.

The interview? It was ok, I forgot a lot of things and they asked me unprepared question, like the analytical techniques that I already forgot. hiks! I did not prepare that. And I am not good at talking too...... Sigh...I just felt that I won't be able to pass any interview, it's only by God's grace only that I can pass it.

Btw, if you are wondering what photos is that, It's the tea-session farewell photo hahaha. Can you see me? I was wearing green shirt, just next to Emma, hehe.

Don't watch ZOHAN

2008-06-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

I was watching this movie after my morning walk today, from Kent Ridge Park, to Alex Arch, and Henderson Waves. We reached Harborfront then watched the movie. And it's NOT GOOD. Pls do me a favor, don't watch this movie, it's really yuckie... a lot of sexual jokes, hiii.....merinding kalo inget2.

The day before I was writing about email from researcher to me, and on friday he emailed me back for an interview on Monday! Wow, I was really excited and couldn't sleep on Friday night. I rushed study back my FYP, IA and my physics for energy band diagram, but still I think it's not enough. I just pray that if this is the one, then be it. If not, then it's fine as well. I was a bit scare to imagine that I will work soon, I love my freedom and enjoy it. Hiks.... Ya...human being always never satisfied.

Fitness

2008-06-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

After I posted the last one, I went to spend half of my day reading books and writing my diary at Singtel building near JH's office at Somerset. And then we went to California Fitness, JH has the membership with company subsidy, and me? I got UOB Ladies card which make me free to come the twice a month. This is the first time I use it and it's FUN! I like it. California Fitness is very cozy, a lot of workout equipment that I have never seen before, and it's fun to try each and every one of it. Then they have Sauna as well, aerobics class. Woo...hoo.... Then have a comfortable shower with free towel and free shampoo/shower gel. They have hair dryer too! And also water cooler. It's sooo....niceeeee.... I love it!

When I came back, actually at first I just wanted to sleep and do not one to check my email, since everytime I check I get no news, but tonight I have one! I am very exciting, that's why I haven't slept until now. But unfortunatelly, they only want the LESS than 2-years after grad employee. Hiks, and mine is just exactly 2 years. Huaaaa........ I am very hopeless that they will allow me, but somemore I haven't passed the interview also. Hiks....but I believe God has His right time for me, if this is not the one then be it. I will still look for the right job for me as God intends me to do in my life so I can be molded according to His wills. Hiks....pls pray for me...

Research pls come to me

2008-06-26T10:08:00.003+08:00

Actually, I felt quite dissapointed with myself. Why did I leave my previous job? Because I don't like manufacturing environment work of life. And now, I am still looking for that job, simply because no opennings for research. I emailed few times to NTU, IMRE, SIMTECH, still no answer yet. I wasn't looking at Process Engineer anymore, but I am looking to new position Quality Assurance/ Quality Control. But anyway, it's still the same manufacturing environment.

I felt quite stress, since people who are calling me are the one who offered me in manufacturing company, hix. Such a hard choice, I don't know what to say in the interview if they are asking why I am quitting my previous job.

I am longing for research job......

Jadul vs Jarang (Jaman Sekarang)

2008-06-25T12:11:00.002+08:00

Hiks, barusan liat2 tulisan2 di blog lama. Huhuhu... Betapa rindu hatiku sewaktu masa kuliah dulu, kayaknya bahagia n ceria banget. Masak2, jalan2, huhuhuhu......

Barusan dapet telpon dari agen pencari kerja, ditanyain, melakukan six sigma ga, dll. Gua gelagapan jawabnya, gua belajar sih six sigma cuman ga ada cerificate2 segala. Ga tau deh pusing. Agak stress juga kalo ditanyain kenapa gua berhenti dari kerjaan gua yang lama. Huh, makanya gua mau masuk research, ga mau industri lagi, tapi ga ada kabar tentang research application gua, hiks.

Gua apply EDB yg dikirim training ke Amrik, tapi itu juga manufacturing, hiks.....Kenapa? Kenapa susah sih, berhubungan ama orang, kenapa pake interview2 segala, kenapa harus pura2 profesional, padahal gua ga.

Satu lagi pertanyaan penting adalah, Kenapa sih gua selalu berpikiran negatif?

Harus banyak senyum dan berpikir positip. Btw ternyata Jco donut enak juga loh.

Grace SCC 35th Mission Convention

2008-06-24T00:39:00.003+08:00

If you just wondering of which church that I am going now, since it seems so mysterious that no one find me in Indonesian churches which exist in Singapore, I am at Grace SCC. What is SCC? Singapore Chinese Church. Huh, yes! I am in a chinese church and I can't speak mandarin at all. But don't worry, I am at the English Service, so I still can understand the message and can sing the song as well. To make everyone more understand the church, I will call the church is JH's church.

Hmm.... It sounds not right anymore, it's not just JH's church, but it becomes mine as well, hehehe =). The involvement in mission convention had made me having the sense of bellonging and it's fun! Previously, I am always complaining that I can't get along well with the people there, because they are married couples with children, I mean they are older than me, so sometimes I can't connect with their conversation. It's just sound so boring for me. Hmm....it's still now, but I am improving, to get interested, hehehe.

It's just a blessed Mission convention. The main speaker is from Australia, Rev. Allan Webb, from Swanston Church in Melbourne, their ministries are focusing on international students. He's already almost on 70s but still so energetic, and his message is so strong!!!!! Wow....

But this time, the same blog i read last time, is the one encourage me even more. How she really loves God and is close with God. I want to have such experience.

These few days have been so tiring for me, since we need to accompany one of the missionary from Africa to see Singapore. This evening, JH and I went out to buy something for him as a gift, then we just don't know what to buy, since the Christian bookstore is already close. So Jh said that why don't we pray, we asked God that we might meet another African, then we'll follow him/her to where she/he goes then perhaps we can now what African likes. Then I say, it's merely impossible to find African in mall. Then, we meet an African girl stood right behind us in the escalator! And we follow her all the way. Actually she was looking for dinner, but we passed through a shop then we decided to look into the store and..... we got a gift now!! Hahha....can you imagine how amazing it is? God is so near than what you are imagine.

I am really happy and encouraged by that.

Random Post

2008-06-20T17:16:00.002+08:00

I was watching Ellen talkshow nowadays, and today she made a show for mom-to-be. She prepared even so called medical-man if somebody in the audience feel like giving birth. They also give nice toilets with TV, because she says that pregnant lady like to go to the toilet. And she gave all the mom a free CRIB from JC Penney. Wow!

Some ads I found at jobsDb that nowadays process eng salary can reach to $3,500-5,000. Wow, make me drilling. Will I apply? or Won't? I keep saying to myself that money isn't important.

Sssttt.... I have a secret

2008-06-20T14:44:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.....gua punya 1 blog rahasia lagi yang isinya bener2 perasaan gua yg gua ga sensor huahahaha. Tadi abis baca2 jadi terharu, hehe terharu ama diri sendiri. Lucu juga gua ngisinya, pergumulan2 pas FYP, ama JH, itu blog cuman gua tulis kalo gua uda bener2 ga tahan lagi hehehe, jadi isinya dikit.

Nih websitenya kalo penasaran:
http://je7ca.spaces.live.com/default.aspx

Kalo ga bisa buka, jgn salahkan gua ya hohoho.....

Ssst....itu websitenya gua restricted sebenernya jadi pada ga bisa liat juga. hohoho

Battlefield of the Mind

2008-06-20T14:29:00.004+08:00

Recently I am reading a book, called the title of this post. Actually I have another book given by my father: Change your thinking, change your life. I believe that mind is the main controller in our life. It is always a choice whether to feel happy today or to feel sad. Every battle is actually a choice.

Yesterday I was watching Get Smart! with an old friend of mine. Feel good to meet him, I can say that his life is full of live and joy (he's preparing for his marriage). So actually I felt the energy, until they started to talk about the job and their people at the office.

My mood is in a very bad shape for the last 4-5 years. I will do whatever I feel like to do. And I felt lazy most of the time. So it ended up with me doing nothing or doing useless thing, such as sleeping, watching korean drama, or playing games.

Lately, I was in the 'thinking' mode, I don't know whether this is better or even worse for me. I used to be a cheerful girl, think about nothing except happiness. The other me is the one who suggest me to think me, but it ended me to be self-pity. Sigh.... I don't know why.

I just wondering whether it;s better to blog or write down in a diary. It will give sentimental value with hand writing. But I doubt that I will read that one again, blogging is more practical.

Jobs Hunting is tiring

2008-06-18T13:29:00.003+08:00

It's not just tiring but it's as well difficult and stressfull. I don't know whether it's trully that difficult or it's just me, too choosy or perhaps I really do not want to work. Sigh.....I am really tired looking for one. I am really not good at interview. I am not good at talking to people, that's why I am blogging. It does help me to release my feeling, which I hope the other person is reading this to know me better, but actually he doesn't. but anyway, I won't force him, it's shd be his free will if he wants to know me.

I just feel that I don't want to work. I just want to stay home do my stuff. People do this all the time, for housewife/mom, right? So why can't I ? What's wrong with that? He was saying that I am running away from works, because it was the only place that I am not protected, I need to work on my own. So what? What's wrong of wanting to be protected? Sigh....I felt so difficult, if I am forcing myself to be brave, eventhough I am not, do you think that I am lying to myself? What the other people want more of me? I am tired of following him. Sigh.... I really don't know at this point of time. He doubts, so do I right now, he's never satisfied. Sigh.....

Kungfu Panda

2008-06-13T21:23:00.002+08:00

Yup I have just watched it at Vivo City. We arrived there at 6.30 and we bought the 6 o'clock ticks, since the 8 o'clock one is also left with first row seats. It was very expensive, cost us 10 dolars per ticks.

The Panda is sooo...... fat and funny. Hahaha.... he can't touch or even see his own toes! Too big belly..... And really food oriented. A good noodle maker (make me want to eat noodle now slurrrp.....). He is so smart in knowledge, he knows everything in the historical things they had in the Jade Palace. And still the mysterious Wu Xi finger hold which ended the war, I still do not know how he can learn the hold and how can the hold so powerful. Enough for now... But I am still thinking what is the point of the story. Want to eat noodle now.

Solicite

2008-06-13T00:18:00.003+08:00

I never felt like this before. Today, I was really out of the world. I did not have people to converse with, no communication with normal people at all. I wrote friendster message to my old friend, chatted with 2 friends, and that's all. Virtual communication. Received sms from JH in the morning, 2 in the afternoon, 1 is from my mom asking how I am doing, and the other from a junior who changed her hp number haha.... I did not face anyone until 8pm? It was when JH came to have dinner at Botak jones. I cooked my lunch and dinner (I did not have any breakfast), so totally at home all day.

And I felt sick, headache. Haha...dunno whether this is true sickness or just because lack of interaction with human beings.

At Indonesia, at least I have my mom to talk with or perhaps my maids? Civilization exists there, but not at this house, nobody back home until 7.30pm perhaps? Haha....yup I felt lonely here.

I watched another Korean drama on channel U, because I was too boring to watch the quiz (The Price is Right) 2 times a day, in the afternoon and evening at channel 5. The girl on the movie was being fired as well and started to look for a new job, just like me! But she was very enthusiastic to find one (not like me). Maybe I have to follow the spirit. I still do not understand why I felt so desperate and a failure, I try to convince myself that I am not that bad, but the thought always come, specially when I am lonely, felt like talking to myself. Hiks......

...

2008-06-12T14:44:00.002+08:00

Beberapa hari ini bener2 nge-slack banget. Ga cari kerja sama sekali. Di rumah, berenang, masak-masak ato nge-browsing internet. Kemaren ini maen Hanna Montana di websitenya, game kuno bikin stress. Terus upload2 semua poto jalan2 ke amrik di facebook, hari ini maen2 game di facebook. Duh, kepala ampe pusing gara2 kebanyakan maen.

Rasanya malas sekali buat cari kerja, ga tau. Abis bener2 ga niat banget, pengen jadi admin assistant cuman mau gimana, gajinya kecil, hiks....Sedih banget.....ga direstuin ortu. Jadi mau cari kerjaan engineer juga males2an ga niat. Gua sendiri juga bingung, sebenernya gua ini mau jadi apa sih, mau ambil master juga angot2an, iya-iya ngga, duh ga jelas banget.

Berenang!

2008-06-10T13:42:00.002+08:00

Setelah menunda2 berenang, akhirnya pagi ini pas bangun lgs punya feeling buat berenang, meski agak dingin2 tapi tetep nekad! Ternyata pas kleuar, udaranya panas bo! Matahari lumyan menyengat kulit. Dengan setengah sadar (karena abis bangun tidur), berjalan menuju swimming complex. Jadi lupa-lupa inget jalan ke sana. Terus lupa2 cara beli karcis berenang, n lupa kalo lokernya musti pake 20 cent. Jadinya balik lagi ke depan buat tuker duit.

Pas pertama kali nyemplung, berpikir, buat berenang 10 kali bolak balik. Daari dulu tuh yang namanya berenang tuh maen air doank, ga pernah ditargetin musti bolak balik berapa kali. Hahaha...yah gara2 ada seorang temen kuliah yg kalo berenang gitu, jadi ikut2an lah. Abis kalo dipikir2 kalo ga renang ditargetin, yg ada berendem lama doank di situ hahaha...

Pas pertama kali berenang tadi, kok rasanya lama.....banget ga sampe2 ujung. Terus berpikir, ya uda 5 kali aja deh bolak balik. Terus berenang balik, mikir lagi, duh ini jauh kolamnya, 2.5 kali aja uda cape kali. Hahaha...terus2 dikurangin jatahnya. Akhirnya gua berenang .... jeng jeng .... 7 kali bolak balik. Dengan bangga hehhee..... Selama berenang terus memotivasi diri hehehe, asal pelan2 yg penting selamat. Gw kalo berenang tuh lelet sekali, ga tau dari dulu uda ganti tempat ngeles berkali2 tetep aja ga ada kemajuan. Tapi yg gua mau achieve adalah gua olah raga! Biar lelet yg penting semua bada bergerak! Hahaha....

Terus pulangnya mampir fair price, mau bikin rujak pengantin, beli bahan2 (kayak pecel gitu lah). Gua tak menyangka jam 10.30 itu emang waktunya org2 belanja, tuh fair price rame banget bo! Banyak ibu2, mbak2, ama kakek2 belanja. Terus pulang n masak. Puas deh! Tapi belon dicuci hehehe, males cuci piringnya.

Cape

2008-06-09T18:42:00.002+08:00

Hari ini officially nganggur buat khusus konsen cari kerja baru. Tapi sekalian bersih2 rumah, akibat debu tebal yg menumpuk selama 2 bulan ditinggal ke indo. Akibatnya berbasuh keringat ngucur angkat2 koran buat dibuang hehehe.... Bangga juga, setelah sekian lama menunda2, akhirnya koran yg tertumpuk bisa dikurangin deh.

Terus malah jadi eneg2 gara2 kecapean n pusing liat lowongan banyak banget, ampe pengen muntah. hahaha.... tapi semoga aja ada dapet panggilan deh. Tadinya mau berenang pagi2, terus kerasa dingin, jadi mikir sore aja, eh panas banget, jadi ga jadi dah..... Duh emang dari dulu selalu menunda2, ga jadi2 mulu.

Back to Singapore

2008-06-07T20:37:00.006+08:00

I just came back yesterday, and JH straight away brought me to Funan and Sim Lim just to get nothing in the end. Then came to his place and cleaned up his room since his parents are coming and going to stay there for a night.

I am getting my coinscience back after the 2-months idling and having fun somewhere else outside Singapore. I have this perception now, that Singapore is a bad place to work, school ok, but not for working. Still the aura of stuckness in small spot haunts me.

Today, I went for a wedding, Indonesian wedding with western style. No comment for the event, since I have to rush to accompany my 'future' in laws (only heavens know whether they'll be my in laws or not). I have to face flood, rain, high heels, miscommunication gap, sleepy compannions and runny nose at the same time.

Actually I really want to mingle around and have a chat with everyone else at the wedding. My world has been very small since I am in working life, it's time to spread your wings and refresh your friendships. But the other consideration makes me prioritized my future investment for my future relationship. Choices, it's been difficult to choose.

Life is really sucks in here, I just want to cry out and go back to Indonesia (although today is just the 2nd day I am here - the aura kills me) . I hope that I don't need to think what others think about me. Why do parents have to show up how good their children are to the relatives. It does burden me. Thank God, my brother has contribute something.

Competition squeeze me : salary, position, bonus and company brand name from your fellow dear friends.

Now, I realize that I always can't accept that everyone else is better than me. I tried to accept it with the wrong way, so now I can't handle anymore.

I felt lonely here, I want to be loved, to be protected. And if anyone don't mind, I want to be in need for who I am and what I am doing.

Last time, I used to cure my loneliness by buying more clothes, stylish shoes, eating in expensive restaurants, watching more movies than ever, and trying to spend time (my precious weekend time) with my love one (but people do dissapoint you, they don't have time for you or you have mismatch schedule to spend time together). My life became emptier than ever. And now I am stopping the habit (still on going process) and try to save more money (although I still can't see the point of saving money instead of enjoying what you have earned). Still on going to find the cure of those feelings.

I used to sleep with my watch on my wrist and my handphone next to my pillow at silent mode (so that nobody will wake up hearing the ring tone, except me of course - the victim!). I never late on waking up in the morning for 1.5 years on my prebious job. I used to wake up in the middle of the night and look at my watch, whether it's the time to wake up (almost every night!). I used to grab/hold my hp wherever I go, every 5 minutes I will grab my purse to feel whether any vibration from my hp.

But I have no jobs now, and feel embarassed about it, but try to hide the feeling anyway. At first, I proud with myself to make such decission, but now I felt trap with my decission, and think that I can do nothing.

I do not know why such feelings attacked my conscience and kept telling me that I am not good at anything. Once, I asked few of my 'close' friends about my strengths, and they found useless things in me. The more I think on my strengths, the more I realized my weaknesses. Is it because of my understanding about Christianity mold my thinking? That I am nothing, and only through Christ I will be strengthened? Yes, I felt that I am nothing. Do I get the strength from Christ? Or I am not surrenderred enough to Him?

My bf always avoid the 'wedding' discussion, he's not ready, that's what he says. My parents and aunties told me to find other guys (their choices, a rich man kid whom they know). Me? I am stuck here.

Recently, my bf has a high chance to have a new job in London, me? I have small chance that he's marrying me and bring me there with him. I am a pessimist. I just can't understand why he's not ready. Not ready means he has doubt on me (although he said that he doubt on himself), whether I am 'the one'. If you are the one, won't he be 100% sure?

I still don't know what kind of jobs that I will like and my parents like as well (means the pay). I just hope, i can become a housewife. Isn't it a job as well? I suggested to my parents to become their maid, since both our maids are quitting. One is because she's going back to her village and raise her kids, the other one just simply too lazy to do anything (she's a modern maid, always uses earphone from her handphone to listen to Indonesian brand new pop songs and sings out loud while she's mopping/ironing clothes).

My mom tested me, she brought me to wet market and carried a lot of things for her, including all the trip around and round the wet and disgusting market. Through the fish smelly aisle, chicken aisle (you can see how they strip off the chicken's fur alive and boiled them - I can hear they are crying seriously!), frogs aisle (how they killed frogs, chop the heads, cut their nails and stripped off the skin and they still can move! ), some more there are turtles, but I haven't seen them kill it (my mom can't cook turtle yet).

How's life so unfair to me, how come this hopeless small personality girl who hardly believe in herself to confince herself about life can give advice to other people about life (harder life issues). A girl who squeek for help only for unfair working nature, need to advice others about their dead and life issues (hmm....not that bad). I can't belive it myself. Sometimes I need to pretend I know the answer, sometimes just be quiet and listen without any suggestions, trying to be on their shoes. It did not help, I know, but what can I do? I just pray once again, the wisdom beyond human's understanding came from God alone. I am just a pipe or a loudspeaker from God. Hopefully I said the correct things.

I just hope that nobody will read this post of mine, either they're lazy because the post is too long or my english is too bad for them to understand what I mean. This my thoughts from my deepest darkest depressed hour of my feelings so far. Thank you!

After this I will go back to old me. Hopefully there will be no more other posts like this.

Update dari Jakarta

2008-06-02T04:13:00.003+08:00

Yup, update dari ke-vakuman saya di Indo. Setelah sebulan nganggur2an and recap kembali ama temen2 SMP-SMA, eh diajak ama saudara ke amrik buat jalan2.

Kali ini jalan2nya ke West Coast (dulu ke East Coast). Lebih ngenunjukin pemandangan alamnya. Luar biasa banget, gunung2,lembah2, padang rumputnya. Menurut saya, itu tour guide ga perlu ngomong apa2, alamnya uda ngomong sendiri kebesaran Tuhan. It's been amazing journey. The nature is incredible, beyond description. Padang rumputnya kayak beneran desktop wallpaper windows loh.

I was staying on my auntie's relative near Michigan. The house was so wonderful (just like houses in movies), with big yard and lots of lakes. Wow!

After the tour, we went to LA, and I went to the Universal Studio (I did not go to Disneyland though).

I went to the Universal Studio Tour and although the tour was a bit boring (they only showed us the background setting/houses used for some movies), but I took some picture for Wisteria Lane(Desperate Housewives). I took photo for Lynette house.

Hari ini masak gagal

2008-05-07T18:57:00.002+08:00

Setelah nonton banyak acara tv tentang masak2, n didorong oleh bokap yg selalu nasehatin kalo jadi cewe harus belajar masak (belum tau kalo di Sing seri masak2 nih). Akhirnya memutuskan buat masak sup ikan. Liat di TV sih gampang banget,semuanya langsung dicemplungin doank. Makanya gua dgn pede mau masak itu.

Dasar tuh acara TV ga bertanggung jawab, jadinya masakan gua rasa JAMU, huek! Kebanyakan lengkuas ama amit2 pedes banget, abis disuruh pake cabe, merica, ama jahe, tentu aja pedes banget. Hiiii......gua kaga mau makan. Bokap gua seneng2 aja makan tuh makanan hahaha.... kayaknya bisa sakit perut bo.

Gua ga akan percaya resep yang di TV itu, dia maen enak bgt cemplang cemplung, org kaga ada yg cobain.

Setelah Sekian Lama

2008-05-07T11:26:00.002+08:00

Setelah vakum hampir sebulan, akhirnya kompi di rumah bisa dipake kembali. Update apa ya dari sini. Kayaknya makin gendut lagi dan dilanda banyak penyakit, hiks. Dari sakit maag berkepanjangan (gua curiga gara2 obat kolestrol yg gua minum), terus skrg pilek dan tenggorokan gatal.

Banyak banget yg mau married tahun ini. Seperti kata temen saya yg berinisial Y, ada 2 org married tgl 7 juni. Ntar bulan Des, sepupu gw juga mo married, akhir Des juga ada tetangga gw yg mo married. Duh pengen dtg semuanya kalo bisa hehehe.

Besok daku akan kembali menjelajah benua Amerika sampe akhir awal Juni, tepatnya 1 Juni.

Komitmen awal yang pengen belajar gitar akhirnya pupus. Jadinya malah belajar nyetir, tapi masih belon berani ke jalan raya. Huh, jadinya setengah2.

Ngapain aja ya di Indo, seperti biasa, ke mangdu ampir 3-4 kali, terus ke Tanah Abang, ke Glodok juga. Facial 2 kali hehehhe.... Tapi gua ngerasa muka gua tambah bolong2 abis dipencetin jerawatnya ama tuh salon.

Rambut juga berhasil dibonding dgn harga mahal bo!

Bertemu temen SMP n SMA, duh serunyaaa.....

Hiks, kalo inget mau balik Singapore, jadi ga tau mau ngapain, mau cari kerja apaan donk. Kayaknya ga ada passion ama sekali buat kerja di bidang gw, hiks

Farewell ...

2008-03-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

Hari ini last day di kantor. Jadi mikirin, perjalanan terakhir ke Woodlands, naek bus terakhir dari Kranji. Ikutan morning meeting terakhir. Ke clean room terakhir kali. Jalan di alley in between cubicles for the last time. Sitting in my cubicle last time, touch the lotus notes, Promis, Space and other company software for the last time. Meeting your lovely colleagues for the last time. No tears. No hugs. Just simply 'good luck' greetings from them. Sad? a bit. Strange? Yes, the feeling is strange. I will always question whether my decision is correct or not.

Future? I still do not know where to go and where He will lead me. I will straight away fly to Jakarta tomorrow. I just want to escape all these things. I am scare they will still call me if I am stay here. Am I running? Why can't I face it bravely.

Current feeling? Awkward and strange...

Sorted!

2008-03-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

I was really inspired to get organized by the book I read. Actually it's not my book, it's library book and not me the one who borrowed it either, my roomie did. It is really interested.

So today I went to IKEA to buy something to help me getting more organized. The picture above is showing a very useful purse rack, where we can hang all our bags. I have some difficulties to keep my bags, and after I googled yest and found this pic, I fell in love with the idea. And tried to chk in IKEA website whether they had it, and yes they have! So I bought one today, unfortunatelly I planned to clip it on the door but the clip is thinner than the door thickness, Hix...seems need to wait my own wardrobe to use it ....

Nature walk

2008-03-16T09:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I was going for a walk along the Mc Ritchie reservoir. We started with a fight, since I only want to find a spot there and look at the lake then do quiet time. But JH wanted us to do some sport as well, means breeze walk. But my purpose yesterday was to admire God's creation (although it is man made nature, but I admire God who creates human and create the lake). It's such a wonderful scenary in the morning. I love it!

I spent most of my time yesterday on the bus actually. I went back from bugis, after our lunch using bus no 7, and reached home at 2. At 4 I went back to city hall for cell group using bus 106, and at 8 using bus again to home.

Sigh....such a waste of time in the journey, and I always fell asleep.

About the sky

2008-03-14T10:18:00.005+08:00

This morning I am looking at the sky. As usual, I have "stressed" dream and woke up with a glance of hope since tomorrow will be hols for me (Saturday mah!). I will very depressed after taking shower, sit down at the sofa, read my quiet time material, and pray. Then think...(while praying), why life is so miserable, why I have to do this, I want to stop, I don't want this kind of life.

Then I remember one of the sermon from the You are the link seminar, the speaker said that he will always looking at the night sky to see stars and understand how small we are as a human. So, that's what I was doing this morning. In the MRT, I saw the blue sky and wondering, "Ya....how small we are. We are indeed like tiny creatures, worthless, but felt like the most important creation in the world." How come God loves us so much, and became like one of us. It's just like us seeing bacteria/amoeba and so love that little tiny creatures and want to be one of them.

Looking at the sky is good, open your mind more, and make you not to be so self pity

Drip..drip.. rain is falling

2008-03-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

I love rain. It just like my best buddy in the whole world. It is there to accompany you. But today when I decided to go back, it was already 6.45, meant I missed the company bus, so I planned to take taxi back. And I brought most of my lecture note which I put in the office last time. It was very heavy. And I just thought today the right time since I was going to take cab. When I walked down and saw outside, it's raining! And no taxi! I walked so far and still no cab, until I took bus to MRT and took cab from MRT. Wow! Through the road, I brought my heavy lecture notes in a very nice levis paperbag. Sigh....the paper bad is torn due to the rain, and my feet were dirty because of the small water in the street.

Rain, why you are not so friendly with me today. Hehehe...but anyway you are still my best friend!

Counting ...

2008-03-09T16:20:00.003+08:00

6 March 2008, we already 5 years together and keep going... We celebrated it early since at first I had KTB on that night. We went for dinner on 4 March at Kuishin Bo. It was fantastic! Haha... free flow of snow crab, and it was the best items of all. But lots of cholesterol. The excited part was, they had this special items that was limited for first come first serve based, such as lobster, exotic desert and honeydew ice cream packed in a cute honeydew container. When they had this offer, they will announce with a catchy song "Tong...tong....tong...Kusihin Bo..." Hahha, you had to hear it yourself, and people had to look around where is the special items being distributed and then they will queue.

Unfortunately, on the 6th, my KTB was cancelled, fortunate for me, we had another celebration, meant another dinner. This time was nearby at Holland V, I chose a famous Australian steak restaurant recommended by my cousin who lives in Perth (she said it is the best in Australia). It is Hog's Breath Cafe. We decided to eat there because they had offer for UOB credit card, by 1 get 1 free main course and drinks as well. Wow! But the food is not included their speciality prime ribs. So we only ate the other steak (not the prime ribs). It was original taste of the bbq meat (means steak), no other spices they add. So for me, it felt a bit tasteless ( I felt Botak Jones is much much more better and cheaper). But I love the Mud Cake. Very nice! Chocolate cake put on top of chocolate pond with sweet whip cream and vanilla ice cream. Delicious!

Enough about the food, back to the reality life. I am counting down on my last day which will be on the last Friday of this month, 28 Feb and I will straight away flying back home on 29. Unfortunately, my dearest colleague Mr J is on leave for 3 weeks until 25 March. And I need to back him up, which means a very hard time will come to me, sleepless nights, late working hours, disturbing weekends. I pray so hard for strength for the days and counting. I really want to finish it as soon as possible. Praying so hard that I will have enough rest mentally and spiritually. I will be very stress.

Thank God, He provides me with new IA student and my boss allows me to 'use' him to help me (it will be mutualism symbiosis, since he will gain more experiences, hey I am a good teacher so far hahaha...). I think he would be a good help for me. He had been with us for 2.5 days, and he had helped me few things.

Few problems still I still need to face alone, but it is much more easier. I just don't understand why Mr J never asked me to do such things, I can help him much to ease his life. Pray that the coming weeks will be not so hard. I always tell myself that it will be over soon, just be strong. Counting until 28 March.

One of my KTB member want to apply IA at my current company, haha then I said "bye-bye" since I won't be there anymore during the IA, and I told her, you won't be stress since you are IA student but you will see stressed people and guaranteed that you won't want to come back (that is my prediction la)

Sigh...the new comers fresh grad starting pay is 200 dollar higher than mine last time (even now, since mine have not increased, yikes! One of the reason I left, stingy company).

My perspective starts changing. Last time I thought becoming a noodle seller in hawker centre is fun, since you won't stress with your works. You know what you're doing and specialize in it, but after thinking further, I felt they might think they have longer working hours (even during weekend) but the income is not so much (perhaps mine is easier?) Dunno....

It is nearer to the Good Friday, I am preparing myself for the sacred week by reading trilogy of the cross by Max Lucado. I have finished reading 1 book: No Wonder They Call Him Saviour. And started to read the next one.

No life purpose

2008-03-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

When we heard for a purpose driven life (like Rick Warren book), we already know what it is (or perhaps we fed up with it already). To glorify God and enjoying Him. Another one is to be like Christ / to achieve the perfection in Christlikeness ( I heard the sermon about this just yesterday). It’s all the thing that we shd have for our life. Last time I searched for the meaning of life, and now I found it (theoritically), and now what?

I felt strange. Although I know all those things, but when it came to my own life I felt hopelesness, I felt empty. How is it to glorify God, to be Christlikeness, if me myself even do not know what to do next in future after I quit my job. My life currently feel like an empty white paper that I don’t know what to write on.

I don’t get it, why we have to work after graduation. And we don’t like our work. Why I need to study so hard just to do something which I can’t enjoy and the bad news is for THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! Hua……………………………………aaaa…………… (can you hear me screaming?) It’s just like a nver ending nightmare, just until you died and you woke up. Sigh…Do I need to wait that long?

I can’t see anything, I am blind. I don’t know what to do next, at least I knew I don’t like this industry, still need to search others, but I felt discourage and do not want to search more. I felt like moving out to other country or becoming an admin officer which will make my mom and dad scream as well together with me.

Sigh….such a difficult choices in life. I will go back to Indon on end of this month to meditate, hope that God will whisper me what He wants me to do. In the mean time, I am planning to take guitar lesson! Yup…..an intensive one for 1 month, so I can sing a song with it. Last time I always wonder for a boyfriend who can play guitar so I can sing with him. But at least my bf still can sing, although he can’t play any instruments (perhaps trumpet? Based on his story). But honestly, I don’t like his type of voice, for choir one. I like the one for Pop, and I always think Pop is cool!

So….since he can’t play guitar, I decided to learn for myself, my voice is a pop type one (haha..I am proud of it), although not too good, but for my own listening, it’s consider ok. I felt my KTB will be more cheerfull as well with guitar to sing praises, and will be helpful in the field.

Talking about future, always made me gloomy. I felt like black clouds surround me, and then a monster came out (hahaha…so anime, just like monster from sailor moon).

I was thinking of taking the Book Ship Doulos, to gain some experience in the ship for 2 months, if my parents ok with it. At first I felt I can’t do it, but somehow, I felt encourage. Hahaha perhaps due to the experience to go oversea also (Australia). If everything ok, I am going to apply to go on 13th June-13th August. But it’s just delaying myself to look for job, since I don’t have desired to look for one either.

Sigh……..helppp………what I am going to be with this condition?

Reluctant

2008-03-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

These few days I always have strange dreams, somekind of nightmare, since in the dream I was pressurized. One of the nights, I was dreaming on being chase to be killed. It was always I knew that I was going to be killed at the first place, so I tried so hard to change the fate that I was going to died. This was the obvious one that I always dreamt of. The other night, I dreamt of given scholarship to do master from my current company. And I was totally stressed since I am going to quit, meaning I am doing half way for the Master degree and I felt disadvantage by quit early before the scholarship finished (in term of money benefit). Then I was very confused and stressed how to decide.

Haha I always stressed, even in my own dream! Can you imagine that? Daily life, eye open - stress, eye close also stress!

Today, one of my PAE passed through my cubical and saw Mr J (today is supposedly Mr J’s off day, and again he came in, such a dedicated man). And they talked about OT pay (Mr J never claimed OT, although he always came back on Monday, so it is just like he works for 6 days a week –> tsk tsk…extra point again for so dedicated). Suddenly the PAE guy said something to me, ” Not like Jesica, not pick up the phone all the time.”

What? I only did not pick up on last Saturday, I got 3 misscall only. Mr J also added, “Ya… I called her also, but nobody picked up”. Sigh…..I just say “Really?”, and the guy said “Oh…at least you called back, some people just did not call back.” Yeah…..

I did not want to argue back, since I was in the church for the whole Saturday for a mission conference. And I have the right not to look at my hp, since I am in the sermon.

On Sunday, the guy called me and said I never returned back the call, the lot already on hold for almost 10 hrs, sigh….I called back on Saturday night and nobody told me about this, and now he blamed me?

I don’t like to fight back, anyway I am going out soon. I don’t want to give reasons that I am inside the church, they will laugh at me and think that I am sooo… ‘religious’. So to avoid that kind of impression, I just let it go, no defence back.

Back actually after you think about it, it’s better to fight back, it doesn’t matter right if they think you are too… holy since you are out anyway.

Sigh….anyway it has already passed. No need to think further about it.

True Grit

2008-03-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

Akhir-akhir ini aku baca buku lumayan cepet, Travelling Light lagi ngerjain study-lessonnya sih, terus sekarang lagi baca sebuah buku ttg kesaksian misionari cewe-cewe. Hmmm....menurutku isinya lumayan mengerikan, bukan mengerikan gimana, maksudnya aku kalo ngebayangin kok kayaknya mereka menderita. Menderita dalam sudut pandangku.

Ada macem-macem ceritanya, ada couple yang melayani di daerah miskin. Mereka sew sebuah apartemen kecil yang ga ada jendela. Di lantai paling bawah, kalo lantai atas pake aer, lantai bawah ga bisa pake (soalnya aernya ngalir ke atas), kalo lantai atas abis mandi, somehow aer bekasnya bisa ngemben di saluran airnya. Terus mana mereka bisa kena macem2 penyakit, diare, hepatitis, aduh kasian banget, apalagi nasib anak-anaknya. Di situ ditulis kalo si cewe ini nulis di diary-nya kalo dia tuh pengen banget balik, cuman dia merasa Tuhan uda panggil dia di situ, jadi dia mau terus. Duh....aku jadi terus berpikir, kalo aku gimana ya. Aku mungkin uda nangis-nangis mau pulang. Aku ga tau sih.......Aku terus berdoa apa ini yang Tuhan mau buat aku ya?

Ada lagi yang tinggal di kapal LOGOS itu, kok kasian juga, katanya kamarnya kecil, mabok laut, duh.........Padahal JH nyaranin buat ikutan LOGOS, mumpung mau berhenti kerja, tapi aku masih ga tau.

Aku pengen banget bisa maen gitar hahahha....keburu ga ya belajar maen gitar sebulan di Indo, beli tiket sekarang ga ya buat tgl 29 Maret? Langsung balik indo biar ga ditelponin company.

Reality Show

2008-03-01T22:49:00.003+08:00

Kemaren abis nonton Amidol, tibatiba lanjut lagi nonton Survivor, dan kembali ada si Ozzy! Yang paling jago, dia cepet dan kuat, makin nge-fans aja ama dia.

Terus ada pula Hells Kitchen yang lumayan serem, abisnya diteriakin mulu, untung si Heather yang menang, abis Virginia dia low confidence banget n keliatan ga bisa gitu.

American idol in the air

2008-02-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hari ini result show, pas cewe-cewenya diumum-in yg keluar, yang laen pada nangis. Cuman aku ngerasa fake banget nangisnya.

Aku suka ama cewe yang rambutnya keriting2 nyanyi pake gitar, hahaha dia sweet banget, dipuji pas kemaren ini. Kalo cowo, aku suka ama yang masih 17 thn yg masih muda banget, imut, terus dia nyanyinya bagusssss bangettttt........nyanyi Imagine all the people ....terharu bo!

Exit Interview

2008-02-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

Aku baru tau kalo interview itu bukan cuman pas masuk tapi pas keluar juga di-interview. Agak nyesel sih ama exit interview-nya. Aku ga mau ngomong yang jelek2 soal company, jadinya lebih nyalahin diri sendiri kenapa mau berhentinya. Jadinya memberi kesan aku tuh ga bisa adaptasi, hiks....Ya sudahlah.

Kemarin ketemu ama org yang interview pas awal aku masuk. Mau ngomong ga tega, haha...dia nanya gimana kabar aku. Aku bilang "ok" seperti biasa. Dulu aku pernah diajak ngobrol ama dia, sampai aku nangis di depan dia, aduh malunya. Aku ga mau terulang lagi, haha...

Mrs HL bilang, aku bikin keputusan tepat. Dia terikat kontrak 10 tahun, jadi musti tunggu 1 tahun lagi. Tapi aku masih wondering apa aku beneran tepat ya....Tapi uda submit juga udahlah...

Tadi beli Chewy Junior di Bugis, akhirnya setelah sekian lama craving....Makan sekaligus 3 biji....hmmm.....jadi eneg hahha...yang keju rasanya keasinan, yg blueberry ke-kecutan, yang chocolate kemanisan hahaha...

Akhirnya aku sudah submit

2008-02-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

Hari ini, aku sudah tunggu2, meski udah agak lupa sih. Soalnya uda ngepas-pas in hari buat last day yaitu 28 Maret. Jadi hari ini officially kasih surat.

Aku rada deg-degan pas mau kasih. Pas kasih, uda ketawa2 cekikikan gitu, boss aku juga ikutan ketawa2 ga jelas, haha terus kabur. Eh, ditelpon ama boss lagi, ada typo error, hahaha memalukan, salah nulis last day nya. Aku tulis hari ini. Terus, boss ku bilang, hari Senin ntar bakal ada anak IA baru, trus dia juga bakal interview pengganti ku. Lalu aku bilang ke ke Mrs HL, kalo ada anak IA baru. Dia uda tau ternyata, dia juga tau kalo bakal ada engineer baru. Dia bilang, emangnya kita punya head count lebih. Aku jadi ga enak boong, jadinya bilang kalo aku bakal pergi akhir bulan Maret. Agak berkaca-kaca sih pas bilangnya. Kemaren si Mr J juga bilang dia bakal on leave minggu depan, bilang dia bakal balik tgl 23, dan dia nunjuk tgl 28 sambil bilang, ini kamu kan? Haha tau aja dia.

Aku masih berpikir, apa aku salah ya, soalnya semua temen kerjaku baik2 beneran, boss ku juga baik banget orangnya. Tapi aku merasa lebih relieve sih.

Tapi.....sebelum pergi aku masih musti jadi back up Mr J, hiks.....menderita deh....Aku takut nih... kayaknya bakal mendapat sleepless night and stress weekend.

Aku baru beli sebuah buku judulnya True Grit, tentang kesaksian misionari2 khususnya para wanita. Ceritanya cukup menggenaskan, maksudnya penuh penderitaan. Mereka yang uda ada panggilan aja, keliatannya sangat bergumul banget di medan, kalo aku, mungkin nangis-nangis minta balik, huhuhu........Show me Your will o... Lord

Dingin

2008-02-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

Akhir-akhir ini anginnya kenceng banget, dari dalem rumah aja bisa kedengeran wush….wush….. kayak badai mungil. Kalo pagi2 juga dingin.

Chewy Junior

2008-02-19T22:53:00.001+08:00

Ada snack baru yg menurutku enak! hehehe.....dikasih coba tadi ama rumet-ku chewy2 enak loh......

Nyesel ga ya?

2008-02-19T19:35:00.002+08:00

Hari ini, hampir sama kayak kemarin, dateng pas2an, untung masih dapet bus.

Tadi boss ku bilang, dia merasa guilty soalnya kayaknya tll sibuk n ga sempet ngobrol secara pribadi one by one ama orang2. Aduh aku jadi terharu, jadi merasa bersalah juga, soalnya waktu itu sempet ada rapat mengenai Quality Mindset, terus kita disuruh kasih pendapat n masukan, di masukan-ku aku tulis kalo kita kurang sharing ttg masalah2 yang kita hadapin bareng (hahaha.....itu sebenernya usul pribadi, mana mungkin sih ada kantor yang sifatnya fellowship kayak cell group aja), eh ternyata boss ku menanggapi serius.

Dia juga ngomong sih, harusnya aku dateng ke dia ngobrolin soal ini. Dia kasih tips, kalo ada apa2 di masa yg akan datang di tempat kerja laen, langsung dateng ke boss, ngomong. Tapi harus cari waktu yang tepat. Aku jujur aja ga berani. Seperti kayak anak SD mau ngomong ama guru ke WC aja dulu aku ga berani, makannya aku sampai sekarang frekewensi ke WC jarang gara2 yah itu.....dilatih dari dulu hehehe. Keinget kalo di rumah, org yg paling ditakutin itu papa. Kalo ga perlu ga berani ngomong. Kalo ngomong juga liat sikon, kalo moodnya lagi hepi baru ngomong (ini tips dari mama, soalnya kalo asal ngomong bisa kena marah). Perilaku yg sama, aku terapin di kantor ke boss, masalahnya kalo di rumah ada mama yang bisa dijadiin 'tumbal' (maksudnya penengah ke papa), kalo di kantor mana ada. Memang sih, dari dulu mana bisa terbuka ama papa, org kalo mau ngomong aja takut. Tapi makin lama jadi lumayan sih, papa suka nemenin belajar dulu pas SMA di kamar ku sambil baca koran hehehe (duh kangennya).

Pas pulang, nunggu bus di depan pintu gerbang company, ketemu boss. Dia nanya2, apa aku uda dapet tempat baru, tentunya belum, dia nanya2 kamu di bagian mananya indonesia, dia ada temen dari surabaya, punya rumah besar dan ada 6 pembantu! Wow! hahaha....dasar si boss. Hix jadi makin terharu aja, kok jadi makin baik yah dia, makin gentle ama aku.

Ada kejadian lucu juga hari ini. Mr R, yg sekarang pangkatnya lebih tinggi dari boss ku, meninggalkan buku clean roomnya deket tong sampah di tempat ganti baju. Untung aku liat, jadi aku bawain. Hahaha....dulu dia juga pernah keilangan bukunya, sampe minta bantuan para specialist di line buat cariin, hahaha....ada-ada aja. Dia sms aku, "Kamu harus dikasih ang pao lagi nih" Hohoho.....taun ini lumayan puas, dapet 4 buah kantong angpao, kemajuan dari taun sebelunnya (taon lalu dapet 3- 2 dari boss dan bossnya boss, 1 lagi dari mamanya JH). Taun ini ga dapet dari keluarga JH soalnya mereka lagi masa berduka karena kakeknya baru meninggal (menurut aturan Kong hu Cu, ga boleh ngerayain perayaan2 selama 2 tahun, jadi ga bisa kasih ang pao).

Uda ah mau maem mie kim chi, hahaha....

Travelling light

2008-02-18T23:54:00.003+08:00

Yup, itu judul bukunya Max Lucado yang aku uda beli sejak kapan ya....mungkin 3rd year. Dulu pas beli, sebenernya cuman penasaran aja ama si Max ini yang kok keliatannya org terkenal. Jadi mau coba2 baca bukunya. Tapi ga gitu tertarik ama topiknya sih, soalnya menurutku aneh. Terus keinget juga dulu si Darwin pernah bilang, kalo uda selse baca, dia mau pinjem. Hehehe, aku bilang ok2 aja, tapi aku ga tau kapan selesenya. Hahaha...

Dan kenyataannya sampe detik ini (kira2 3.5 taon kemudian) belon selese baca. Beberapa hari yang lalu, somehow aku inget kalo aku punya buku ini, n nampaknya menarik buat dibaca. Soalnya aku beli buku Max lainnya yg judulnya Facing the Giant, n I am about to read that one and decided to read the old one instead. N bener2 bersyukur banget ama buku ini (sekarang blon kelar juga sih bacanya). Study guidenya mantap. Bagus banget menurutku.

Detik2 menuju 28 Maret uda semakin deket, jadi makin mikir, apa keputusan ku ini salah ya. Aku semakin sadar kalo kayaknya aku ini yg bermasalah n bukan tmpt kerjanya. Di salah satu study guide Travelling Light ada pertanyaan renungan:

" Kalo kita merasa dengan pindah environment, attitude kita bisa berbeda, berarti kita belon travelling light"

Maksudnya, attitude kita ga seharusnya bergantung ama keadaan kita.

Hari ini bangun dgn perasaan cukup hepi soalnya bisa tidur nyenyak (gara2 minum obat tidur) n punya feeling lumayan. Berangkat ke kantor cukup telat, jam 7.15 dari rumah (harusnya jam 7.12 hrs uda jalan), jadinya dapet MRT yg telat, harus nunggu 7 menit (biasanya frekwensinya 4 menit). Tadinya bangun dgn kepala pusing dikit n uda kepikiran mau MC lagi hari ini, cuman dipikir2 kasian boss saya, hari ini backup saya kan off day (dia swing shift, kerja dari selasa-sabtu) kalo saya ga ada ini keterlaluan. Aku kalo mau ambil leave/MC musti liat2 dulu, mesinnya lagi banyak masalah apa ngga, ato ada OOS measurement lot yg musti di settle (OOS itu out of spec dari normal chart). Sebisa mungkin harus ga ngerepotin org laen, kalo bisa tetep pantau kerjaan dari rumah pake laptop.

Beruntung banget akhirnya tiba di MRT Marsiling jam 7.45 n shuttle bus ke company yg terakhir dtgnya jam 7.50, jadi masih bisa naik bus ke company, daripada naek public bus, turunnya di belakang company, jadi musti jalan cukup jauh dari fab 6/CSP ke fab 2, mana uda telat, harus ambil problem logsheet (kertas yg isinya alarm2 mesin hari kemaren, n gimana mereka dispose half etch productionnya), harus analisa dulu kemaren ada alarm apa aja di intranet company, terus equipment engineernya troubleshootnya gimana, ada lot OOS apa ngga, true OOS apa gara2 wrong measurement. Hahaha...tapi hari ini diberkati Tuhan (bukan berarti hari laen ngga), jadi dapet bus yg jam 7.50 (terus dgn kiasu lgs masuk ke bus rebutan, soalnya biasanya rame bgt ampe ga bisa masuk n artinya sama aja, musti pake public bus).

Sampe di kantor jam 8 pas, buru2 naek lift ke lantai 4, ambil problem logsheet di cubical tempat PAE, eh uda ga ada satupun problem logsheet (hmmm....mungkin uda diambil Mr W --> colleague dari Myanmar). Terus buru2 ke cubical-ku buat analisa intranet mesin alarm. Eh....boss ku dtg kasih ang pao, cring cring.....jadi terharu.......di meja ada amplop laen yg isinya poto pas DND December lalu, dikasih ama PAE favoritku, cring cring.....jadi makin terharu. Aduh aku keluar apa keputusan yg tepat ya?

Terus jam 8 lewat dikit, segera lari ke ruangan meeting 04-13 buat morning meeting dgn equipment ngebahas alarm2 itu. Pas di dalem, ooo.....ada Mr J, my backup. Hm....dia kan harusnya off day, knp dateng, jadi kasian banget ama dia. Terus thx God banget, hari ini ga ada alarm! Wow! padahal hari Jumatnya banyak loh.

Yah abis meeting pagi, terus follow up loh action itemnya. Ada lot yg musti dinaikin prioritynya karena buat qualification L20 etch yang menimbulkan huru hara di kantor itu. terus sama aja di L20 FI ketemu oxide stain di pinggir, yang harus di follow up.

Mana ada audit 8D tentang PCONT bell jar yang retak itu. Harusnya ini under equipment, dasar aku emang suka diperdaya ama equipment engineer. Ngobrol2 ama Mr J, kenapa dia masuk hari ini. Ms CG yg harusnya off juga dtg hari ini. Aku bingung, kok org2 bisa dedikasi banget ya, kalo aku sebisa mungkin ga mau ke kantor, hahaha......Akhirnya Ms CG bantuin follow up masalahnya Mr W yg ternyata ambil urgent leave hari ini.

Hua......tadinya pulang kantor mau lari jogging, akhirnya ga jadi soalnya uda gelap. Makan dumpling 4 dolar (dapet 8 biji) beli di bawah (orgnya ga bisa inggris). Ga ada karbo, mengingat harus jaga berat demi kesehatan. Tapi kalah juga, beli es krim di mini market, soalnya pengen makan es krim Tiramisu rasa kopi gitu. Huaa....ntn Heroes, cuci baju, jemur baju, cuci rambut.....n sekarang saatnya bobo........

Be Thankful!

2008-02-17T06:52:00.002+08:00

I felt very ashame of myself after reading one of my friend's blog. How she's always thankful in every word she wrote. Not like my blog, it's always full of complaining and complaining. I am actually put my nickname in the MSN 'every day-give thanks', but honestly I can't. I put that, so it will remind me to give thanks, but I can't. I always think negatively about everything related to my work. Why I am so childish? My life is full of worried. How to be surrender? This is the main issue that I think my God wants me to learn, but until now I still can't. Once a while yes, but can't most of the time. Is it a wrong decission to quit the job? Is it considering I am running from the circumstances? It's already 1.5 years, yet still I am the same person that worried, fear every single day in my life.

What am I doing today this early morning on Sunday? I woke up because of a call from office! And started to get worried for what is happening in the office on last Friday since I was not coming. I felt really guilty. If I felt I am very stressed, I will take a day leave, an urgent leave. Isn't it same as running from reality and not face it? I really pity my backup colleague who's suffered because of me. How can I face reality and be a grown up? I felt that I can't accept the reality that grown ups must work and accept responsibilities. I want to be in my safe inner shell. Safe from people scoldings, people expectations. I don't want to go out, I am scared, I felt that I can't adjust. But is it the right choice? O Lord...help me to understand what's this meaning of life, to learn how to live according to Your will. Hopefully my taking break back in Indonesia will refresh me and give me new opportunity to try baravely something else to explore what God has planned for me in my life.

Selamat hari kasih sayang!

2008-02-16T14:44:00.004+08:00

Pas tgl 14 feb, the-day, gw ambil leave 1 day. Bukan buat ngerayain valentine, tapi buat ngurus perpanjang paspor di kedutaan KBRI n check up ke dokter. Tadinya mau ambil half day, tapi sayangnya doctor appointmentnya jam 4 sore n KBRI cuman mau terima perpanjang paspornya dari jam 9-12 siang. Jadi terpaksa ambil full day leave.

Tadinya uda cari2 jalan terdekat dari bus stop ke KBRI, yaitu Outram Park, naek dr bus stop yg sejajar ama shuttle bus ke SGH, naek nomer 75 n berhenti di B05 Grange Road. Unfortunatelly, gw kelewatan tmpt berhentinya. Jadilah jalan lebih jauh dari biasanya.

Terus pas di sana lumayan panik ngisi2 formnya, ternyata selain butuh potokopi akte lahir n ic, butuh juga potokopi 2 halaman pertama dan halaman terakhir paspor. Untung bawa. Terus masa orgnya ga terima potokopi akte lahir yg inggris, maunya yg indo, untung bawa juga. Tapi gw salah di bagian potonya, ini gara2 koko gua yang dgn pede nyetakin poto terus bilang bisa dipake buat bikin paspor karena glossy. Jadi harus buru2 ke Orchard Tower naek bus 111/132 terus balik lagi ke embassy, naek bus yg sama. hari itu gua pake sendal yang akhirnya melukai kaki gua hiks......(soalnya banyak jalan). Ini jalan dari embassy, asri banget n peacefull, (ada nama jalannya biar inget: Chatsworth road)

Abis itu ke Orchard, janjian buat lunch ama JH, senangnya ternyata JH ambil half day juga. Kita makan di Ichiban Boshi (jadi inget dulu kencan kita di ichiban Boshi di Esplanade, guanya bete2 waktu itu hahaha). Kali ini hepi tentunya, kita pesen meal gitu, wah banyak banget side dishnya, senang!

Lalu ke HMV bentar, menggunakan vouchernya si JH yg bisa diredeem 25 dlr, tadinya dikasih ke gua, tapi gua ga tau mau beli apa. Kalo gua beli VCD pilm pasti dimarahin, akhirnya dia sendiri yg pake beli cd klasik.

Terus ke SGH, lumayan hepi sih, soalnya tnyata gpp cuman disuruh olah raga lari tiap ari!!!!! Huhuhu ga tau nih gimana ya, gua kan plg ga suka OR. terus ke SKS, dan menemui study bible yg hari Senin gua beli di Tecman seharga almost 80 dlr (79.90), di SKS cuman 54 dolar bayangin! Jangan beli alkitab di Tecman deh. masa bisa beda banyak bgt ampir 50 persen.

Terus ke NTU buat KTB, n guess what? Anak2 KTB memberikan paket valentine, huaaaaa.....terharuu.......

Hari Jumatnya, gua pagi2 dapet mimpi buruk, terus kepala pusing2, jadi memutuskan buat ambil leave lagi. moodnya beneran ga baik, bener uda menunggu saat2 keluar....cepetan donk.... Tapi kadang2 takut juga, soalnya abis ini masih ga tau mau ngapain n mau ke mana. Terus sll mikir lah, ini keputusan yg bener ga sih, soalnya jujur team gua orgnya superrrrr baik, cuman nature kerjanya yg ga tahan, n tekenan stress/mentalnya.

My cubical........berantakan yaaa......penuh file (musti mulai packing). I will miss the place, the people ....

Greek Masterpiece

2008-02-11T13:55:00.000+08:00

Some photos while I was going to National Museum to see the Greek statue, I stood beside the Alexander the Great.

Using some traditional Greek clothes named Chiton and Peplos

EC

2008-02-11T11:03:00.000+08:00

After the service, for the 1st time I had lunch fellowship with the EC people. I was in the same table with this one guy who has a voice like Don Moen, hahaha....and most of the time, he was the one who led the worship. And actually I just knew that he is a teacher. I have a thought to become a teacher as well, since I want to change field (no longer engineering). But after I heard his story with the kids, wow it is a challenging job indeed. There are a lot of kids which is rebbellious. you need to have extra patience and compassion to them. Do I have it? Hmmm....I don't think so.

I always feel that I am too coward. I feel that I am a looser and a failure, I always think that I can't do anything right. Am I able?

What are the things that I can do well? i can't think of any. That's why I am thinking of doing admin job instead.

CNY

2008-02-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

6th evening
That day, my boss allowed us to came back earlier than usual, at 2 pm, the office was really quiet, not like usual, full of phone ringing. Unfortunatelly I got something to do, so I went back at 4 pm and decided to come back the next day.

Have a dinner with my brother with NUS canteen food $3, he tapao the food from afternoon. We hang out at my living room watching "Wait till you older" by Andy Lau, then he went home. I felt very lonely that night, so I asked my parents to call me. We chatted, then I slept.

7th (1st day of CNY)
I went to office early in the morning (I went even earlier) to finish my stuff early. Finished at 11.30 am and decided to go for my friend's invitation for lunch. I arrived there at 12, and no other guests there. I helped them preparing the food. We ate chicken noodle (Indonesian style of course), with lots of side dishes (spring roll with bee hoon inside, fried bread roll with ham and cheese inside). We brought our turkey as well. They were very excited to cut it using fork and knive, just like in the TV. And the rest using hands. In the end, they can't finish it so we brought back home again (sigh!). I do not know what to do with that left over turkey.

At 2.30pm I took off from there (they have not finished yet, they started eating at around 2 pm), I met my ta tjie from church hehehe at east coast. We could not believe it that the beach was so crowded. Even you can't go in to the seven eleven. The shop keeper must limit the person inside the store, so there was a girl stand near the door to guard the door (to allow people in and out). Can you believe this? It's just like the Gucci sale at Paragon.

We tried to find a quiet place for sharing, but it's very difficult. So many people camped and playing at the beach. In the end we found a spot to sit down and talk. We talked a lot. She's such a nice ta tjie, she really listened to me and interested to hear things about me! This is the 1st time I felt being heard after quite long time (I think since high school from my old best friend, I miss you!). We shared a lot of things, specially about my struggle and plan for future together with JH. We talked until it was 8pm, then we found a place to have dinner (BK) and continue again until 10pm! Wow!

8th (2nd day of CNY)
I woke up quite late, trying to read books, but couldn't be so concentrate. Listening to Korean Music, arrange my Friendster and Facebook. Cooking Tom Yam soup for lunch to finish prawns I got from the BBQ on last Sunday. Then chit chat with flatmate, have a nap, planning to watch 27 Dresses, but cancelled due to we all slept, hahaha.... Cooking again for dinner, aglio olio with prawns (again!) I finished all the prawns already! I dunno how much cholestrol I will get from the prawns. Read some books, then found interesting Jap drama, HANA KIMI, watched for 2 episodes then slept.

9th (Saturday)
Woke up, made coffee, read book and went to the museum for the Greek Exhibition "Louvre". Spend quite some time there, from 1pm until around 5 pm! trying Greek clothes (I will post the photo later on).

Went for dinner, invited by Grace church cell group. All are families there, they brought their small kids with them. At first they talked to me, but think, we out of topics, so I decided to join the kids watching ICE AGE 2 (I already watched it before with Yoli from M1), while the others continue chit chat. Sigh.....I think I am more on the kid side. Maybe JH right, I am childish and not mature yet...........

But very glad for the people I met there, they are very caring, I was really touched. And found that the pastor was also a process engineer last time! So I can chat well. Just think that the guys are more friendly than the ladies, they were busy with their own business. Will I be able to click with them? Am I to quiet?

Sarah Chang concert

2008-02-02T12:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Sarah Chang concert, so I went back early to get change and prepared for the concert. I wore a new dress I bought last time from Madam Mouiselle in harborfront.

I was a bit sick yesterday, had headache, so I did not really enjoy the concert. Sarah Chang only played for the 2nd half. She's not slim as I imagine, she's a bit plum and 'bongsor' hahaha.... She wore a nice maroon dress with black laces which makes her slimmer. Somehow I felt that she looks like me hehehe....

We tried to take her picture after the concert ends, so many people queueing for her autographs and took her picture.

Sushi Tei

2008-02-02T12:05:00.000+08:00

The other day, JH became so nice since he had his bonus. So we went out and eat in another Jap food restaurant: Sushi Tei.

We tried their Hokkaido Fair. We order a very nice cawan mushi, with real crab, for 2 person!

Then we also ordered a Hairy crab!!!!! You see the picture, the crab is really hairy! But the "capit" is very small, not the fat one. The meat taste is very unique, they don't put any seasonings, but it taste different!

Next we order the seafood roll with cheese, it came out not too nice since too much cheese, make you want to throw out.

Poor of my next dishes, delicous salmon belly, salmon meat and salmon roe, all tasted not too nice after you ate that seafood roll. But overall is very nice!

Kuishin Bo........

2008-02-02T11:55:00.000+08:00

After so long of cravings of this restaurant, at last I am able to eat here during Sunday afternoon. It costed almost 30 sing dlr per person, during evening it will be increase by 10 dlr but free flow of Alaskan Crab. Actually it's far from my expectation, I thought there will be more variation, but actually what they had there is already good enough, and all are fresh!

We had WAGYU beef as well for the grilled, it tasted very nice!

DND photo

2008-02-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

I like the people but hates the job. I wish I can go ASAP..................................

akhirnyaaaa

2008-01-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

Akhirnya gua bilang juga ke boss gua kalo gua uda mau udahan. Uda bilang juga ke mentor gua n junior gua. Tapi belon kasih surat resmi. Jadi pengen cepet2, makin lama makin ga tahan rasanya.

Kerja dan kemenangan

2008-01-17T20:26:00.000+08:00

Apakah gua tampak bahagia? Coba tebak boss gua yg mana? Hahhaha.....Hiks, sedihnya pengen cepet2 keluar nih

Mixed Up

2008-01-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

Gua kadang2 ngerasa uda ampir gila rasanya, ga tahan pressure. Tadi pagi, jam 4 pagi ditelpon kantor karena ada masalah. Terus jadi ga bisa tidur abis itu, kepikiran terus. Mikir apa hari ini musti dtg ke kantor ato bisa minta tlg colleague yg swing shift buat settle. Beneran ga bisa tidur terus serius under pressure. Jadinya kerja di rumah deh sampe kira2 jam 5an terus mikir, kalo masalahnya emang harus nunggu ampe pagi, gua ga bisa apa2 skrg. Lagian kalo mau sms colleague gua kan ga mungkin tengah2 pagi buta.

jadinya gua balik ke tempat tidur dengan perasaan kacau ga jelas, nulis sms buat colleague tapi disimpen n disiapin buat dikirim pagi2. Terus yah kebangun2 terus lah liat jam, uda jam 7 belon, terus pas uda kirim juga kepikiran, uda dibales belon, terus mikir juga, jgn2 dia pulang kampung hari ini, jd sms colleague yg laen buat nanya apa si colleague itu masuk hr ini.

Terus sekitar jam 9 bangun lagi, mikir2 kok ga dibales2 smsnya, kalo mau telp skrg, mereka lagi morning meeting, nunggu sekitar jam 10an baru selesenya.

Terus selama nunggu itu jadi nerve breakdown, jadi bener2 kesellll banget, kenapa sih beginian musti tjadi hari ini, terus ngebayanging muka boss gua yg serem and bete, jadi sedihhhh banget.... jadi keinget pula uncertainty buat gua ama JH and mission, terus pengen bener2 secepet2nya berhent kerja, terus mikir juga kok gua ga ada masa depan banget, ga tau mau ngapain. Bener2 stress, terus keinget thankfully read today devotion and pray. Suddenly jadi bisa berdiri and mulai telp2 kantor and try to settle the thing frm home.

Tapi aku emang org yg gampang stress n panik, saat ketemu masalah. Jadi sll need sometimes to calm down and face it, hiks.......ga pengen lagi di kantor ini

Chili Crab and Bday

2008-01-11T19:55:00.001+08:00

Yup, kapan ya, 2 hari yang lalu kita mau ngerayain ultah salah satu temen dgn mencoba bikin Chilli Crab! Dan hasilnya? Fantastis...... *coba liat ke gambar*. JH cari2 dari youtube cara ngebunuh kepiting, dan mereka bunuh 3 ekor!

Terus pake nangis2 ngupasin bawang merah bejibun, and ngiris2 bawang putih, hehehe.... Tapi mantap, ga rugi! Ternyata gampang loh, liat aja resep di internet.

Kelompok yang kekenyangan n bahagia, Happy Bday Nug2

New Year lunch

2008-01-11T17:40:00.001+08:00

Pertamanya kita mau bikin steamboatan rame2, terus pas lagi belanja di IMM, ngeliat ada makanan diskon. Yaitu......Kalkun! Beli 1 gratis 1! pertamanya kita pikir itu 30an dlr, pas uda bawa ke kasir, eh ternyata 50 dlr. Terus balik lagi ke tempat kalkunnya sambil mikir2. Akhirnya karena kepengen makan turkey soalnya jarang banget, jadi kita beli. Terus mana ga ada shuttle bus IMM lagi (uda kemaleman), jadi musti naek bus SBS. Itu turki lumayan berat.

Terus buntut2nya kita ga berhasil ngabisin 2 ekor itu. Kita cuman berhasil makan 1 -- (soalnya masih ada sisa). N sejak hari itu, gua mendeclare kalo gua bener2 ga suka bnaget ama yg namanya turkey! Bau minyaknya bikin eneg

Christmas at Chen Li

2008-01-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

Kalo diliat2, gua n JH tambah gendut ya, terus Yop ama Chan2 tambah kurus hahahaha

Movies and movies

2007-12-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I watched 2 movies. After worked, straight away went to Jurong east and waited for bus to IMM to eat Pepper Lunch. The shuttle bus waiting time is intollerable. I waited there from 6.45 until 7.30 then it came. Tsk tsk.... I won't use it anymore. Then went to IMM, afterwards we decided to eat SUBWAY instead, since it's cheaper than pepper lunch hahahha....Should have gone to Bukit Batok instead then. The SUBWAY there is very nice, they baked really baked the bread, it's crunchy and fullfilling. Yummy.....

Then went to Jurong east back and ended watching I AM LEGEND since it is highly recommended by a friend. At the first time, it's really make me scare. I kept closing my eye and covering my ears. I wanted to run from the theatre. I did not like horor, specially zombies, hiiiii..........

But in the end it's not as scary as I thought, since it is more on drama side. But I kept waiting the fighting part, the best hour, it never came and suddenly it just ended. hahaha.... I think because it's not an action movie instead more on drama.

When I went back it already reached around 12 and I turned on my TV and found an interesting movie. I did not know the title, but kept watching until the end around 3, hahaha....

It is a touching story of real story on a transveties in Thailand. It showed the struggle from he was a kid, became a monk, and became a Thai Boxing champs. It was very interesting story. But somehow I just thought, is it possible God created human with such dillemma in their lifes. God created human as His image. I believe God will be sad when He sees His creation like that.

But when you see his life, it's really indeed a struggle for him to survive in life. He kept questioning his true identity. I wish he knew God's love, but do you think it will change him? When I saw in the movie, in Thailand it's common to see this kind of transvieties. Maybe environment is one the reason to support the changes? Like nowadays, in US or even in korean drama, girl and boy live together in the same roof. Is it normal? Or society become more and more immorral. Such a destroyed world we are now. But I still do not know how to comment on this transvieties and homosexual. Whether I trully against them or not, since you had to know their struggle in live. Just like a friend say to me, "You can hate their decission/behaviour, but you have to continue love them. God loves them too."

Photos

2007-12-27T13:15:00.001+08:00

Ini adalah poto2 dari wedding yang waktu itu dimasukin di post yang lalu.

Poto di depan pohon Natal di St Mary

Sakit

2007-12-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

Yah, kemaren ga masuk soalnya sakit pala. Hari ini ga masuk lagi soalnya sakit perut. Parah, emang uda ga niat kerja. Bagaimana ya nasib gua selanjutnya. Masa depan gua? Ga tau mau jadi apaan. Pengen di research aja, cuman kalo ga ambil Phd jadi sia2. Aduh jadi admin staff aja kali lebih enak, cuman gajinya lebih kecil. Tolong.....ini semua tjadi gara2 gua masuk company gua yg sekarang. Jadi trauma ga mau engineering lagi. Huh.....emang banyak banget alesan yg gua bisa keluarin buat bener2 benci ama company gua

Christmas ....

2007-12-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

Natallll! Sekarang uda jadi tradisi, kalo Natalan pasti kita2 ke gereja Chen Li, ikut kebaktian di sana. Tgl 24 malem, gua n JH jalan2 di West Mall. Kenapa West mall n bukan di orchard? Soalnya gua tau di Orchard pasti padet banget n pasti ngebetein soalnya bakal stuck, ga bisa jalan di tengah2 keramaian. Jadinya kita milih yg deket aja. Terus makan si SWENSENS and it was terribly not good food. Ga tau napa, pokoknya malem itu makanannya ga enak bgt, either kita salah pilih makanannnya atau mrk masaknya ga enak.

Pagi2 berangkat ke Chen li, eh tnayata si JH sakit! kasian bgt, dia ga makan siang. Padahal makan siangnya fantastik loh! Rendang pedes, ayam panggang ama lalapan huaaa.....enak banget.

Sorenya, harusnya kita ada pergi lagi ama EC di gerejanya JH buat dinner di YWCA. Tapi berhubung JH sakit, jadinya ga pergi deh.

Pagi ini dia juga ga masuk. Terus gua merasa pusing2 jadi MC juga. Eh nyatanya jadi berkepanjangan, skrg juga pusing2 eneg....Tolong.....

Ada apa dgn hari ini

2007-12-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Yak, hari ini gua agak 'menggila', soalnya ga ada JH n Yoli, hohohoho...... Dimulai dgn pagi2, gua ntn Yoo Hee the Witch ampe jam 4.30 sore. Gua baru ntn ampe episode 4 terus langsung loncat ke episode 16 yg tearkhir. Abis lama banget ga selse2.

Ceritanya lumayan aneh, hehehe..... Itu cewe pemeran utamanya si Yoo Hee. Dia tuh awalnya bener2 kayak witch. Bajunya juga kayak secret agent. Pake jas ama celana item. Kacamata bingkai item terus rambut ekor kuda terus. Perilakunya juga ngebetein. Kasar n blak2an. Dia selalu gagal cari cowo (dia pergi kayak blind date gitu, tapi sll ditolak). Papinya kaya, dia jadi direktur perusahaan advertisement. Terus dia punya temen si koki ganteng campuran korea n amrik, namanya Johnny Cruger. Diajak bantuin dia buat jadi koki di Korea. Wah ini beneran ganteng, gua pas ngeliatnya aja pertama kali ampe ngejerit, hohoho....

Yoo Hee ini punya cinta pertama yg tak bisa dia lupakan. Dan dia ditolongin ama si pemeran utama cowonya si Moo Ryong, untuk ditransfer jadi cewe cantik nan feminin. Sebenernya ga dibantu, itu gara2 cowonya itu kepengen banget jadi koki, sedangkan keluarganya pengen dia jadi dokter (dia uda 1st year di kedokteran, trus memutuskan buat cuti). Dia miskin, ga gtu kaya (keluaraganya cuma punya restoran kecil jualan mie). Terus suatu hari pas dia nganterin mie, motornya nabrak si Yoo Hee, n dia harus bayar 40K. Dia ga punya duit, makanya dia ganti dgn kerja di rumahnya Yoo Hee jadi pembantu. Terus dibantuin lah dia biar jadi cantik.

Seperti biasa, akhirnya mereka berdua jatuh cinta. Si Moo Ryong ini ga cakep, menurut gua dia itu punya senyum cunning, tapi di pilem ini dia tuh baek and gentleman bgt ama si Yoo Hee. Masa lebih baek ke Yoo Hee daripada pacar awalnya di pilem ini, hmmm aneh.

Kembali ke weekend gua. Abis itu gua meluncur ke Vivo city. Pergi ke toko yg direcommend ama flatmatenya JH. Hmmm....luamyan sih baju2nya bagus n ga mahal. Jadilah daku beli sebiji di situ, nama tokonya Madam Moisselle di Harborfront center. Lalu dinner SUBWAY!!!! Akhir2 ini craving makan subway COLD CUT TRIO, pake parmesan oregano roti. Terus di toast pake keju. Sayurnya pake lettuce, tomato, olive, ama jalapeno. Terus pake saos mayonise. Huaaaa............enaknya. Sebenernya gara2 olive ama jalapenonya jadi enak kecut2 seger pedes. Enak banget dehhh........

Terus liat2 bbrp toko, di Nichii lumayan, cuman gua ga suka dress yang coraknya itu modernist gitu, pengennya yg kembang2. terus ke Joop, lucu2, tapi ga cukup rasanya. Ke 1 toko lagi menemukan baju yang lumayan, bubble dress, lucu. Cuman menurut gua kependekan (di atas lutut). Abis kelilingin tuh lantai 2, terus ke lantai 1. tadinya uda mikir lantai 1 itu kebanyakan branded stuff yg mahal2. Terus nyampe ke Forever 21, n gua jadi menggila, coba2in tuh baju2, and ended beli 3 dress lagi dari forever 21. Hihihihi.........senangnya, semoga aja si JH bilang bagus, kalo dia bilang jelek, gua ga bisa pake deh....

Natal sepi

2007-12-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today is a public holiday. I woke up at 9 and quickly copy all my files from my desktop to my new tablet PC, since on Saturday my bro will go back to Indonesia and our computer in Indonesia was broken. So we are going to use mine here to be brought back to Indonesia, and I will use my PC table fulltime from now on.

Had lunch in kopitiam for the $2.80 BBQ chicken wing with rice. Then shopped a little in fair Price nearby and went back to chk the file copying. Felt very sleepy, but unfortunately can't have a nap due to my blocked noseeeee.... Sigh I hate this. Can't breathe you know.

Then went to Changi with my flatmate to send her back to Indonesia. Huaa.... I also wanted to go backk.....

My bf is in Malaysia currently. He got something that he needed to settle there. So I will be lonely here. I started to remember during the beginning of my coming to Singapore. We always sent our friends and picked them up from airport. We had each other. But since I am with JH, automatically, he will be my "cahuffer" (not literally). He 'obligue' to send and pick me. Then I became self contented. And I just realized how I had abandoned my friends. I am bo longer accompany or pick her up from airport. And today is the right time to remember this, so I sent my flatmate.

But I felt a bit guilty also, because in the end I ate at Sakae at Changi, hohoho all by myself. And I spent $25 just for myself! Tsk tsk tsk..... I felt not good. And still had my blocked nose.

Hmmm.....whether this Christmas I will be really lonely?

DND ooo DND

2007-12-20T11:29:00.000+08:00

Ini pertama kalinya gua ikutan DND di Singapore. Diadain ama company gua. Bukan annual event, soalnya taon lalu ga ada. Mereka bikin kalo mereka rasa pengen aja.

Gua beneran ga nyangka kalo DNDnya bakal mengerikan. Mengerikan maksudnya brutal2 ga jelas. Gua ngeliat semua dosa2 terlarang. Mabok lah, semua out of control. Mengerikan.

Temanya aja uda aneh, ALOHA FIESTA. Orang2 dateng pake baju pantai, ada yang pake baju hawai yang pake bikini n rok rumbai2. Hiiiiii..... Pas di pintu masuknya aja disambut ama 2 cewe hawaiii yg seksi hiiii...bikin merinding. Perutnya rata banget (kalo ga rata ga mungkin berani pake bikini).

Terus performancenya juga aneh bgt, ada bencong2 (sebenernya staff chartered) nyanyi n joget2. Yah....loe tau sendiri cowo2 jadi aneh, n teriak2 terus joget2 juga........(aduh ingetnya aja jadi serem). Gua merasa beruntung banget ga dandan, gua lgs dari kantor, pake baju kantor. Gua ga bisa bayangin kalo gua pake gown, mati deh, serem.......

Yang paling aneh itu ada pole dance. Hiiiii............................................ mereka take it as circus, cuman yah menurut gua pole dance tetep pole dance. Padahal comittee nya itu cewe2 decent loh, para sekretaris kita. Gua ga nyangka.

Untunglah table gua, yg isinya collegue2 gua semuanya org baek2. Ga ada yg mabok. Yg suka minum uda berhenti soalnya abis married. Satu lagi jago bgt minum, dia ga bakalan mabok (serius). Yang parah cuman 1, boss gua! Hohoho.....gua ga nyangka dia mabok bgt ampe muntah 2 kali bo! Untung ada temen2nya yg bantuin dia pulang, uda ga bisa jalan.

Serem banget liat cowo mabok. Laen kali gua mau lgs pulang aja. Ga peduli lucky draw ato makanan, situasinya lebih serem. Kata colleague gua, ini masih lumayan. 2 taon yg lalu, sampe ada yg berantem, huhuhuhu.......

Life

2007-12-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

Quick update before going to Mandarin service from Stephen Tong.

I hate my current life. Hate it. Totally hate it. I feel extremely dissapointed with my life. Why I have to do such things. Why I have to work. I hate so much my work. I got crying night over night until my tears dry. I hate Singapore working life. Hate it so much. I want to go back to Indonesia, or becoming a housewife. I don't want to work.

Warlords

2007-12-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

The wedding I was telling about, cost me a lot. For the dress! I just had a beautiful little black dress *ESPRIT* for my bday gift from JH. But one of my friend said that it is forbidden to wear black color to a wedding ceremony. So I went to shop for another dress and ended bought 2 dresses. One in white color, I like it sooooo much! But JH feel that it was not that good. Then we looked for another one in dark purple color (much more ex than the white one, the white one is more suit for me). But this dark purple dress won't fit in the afternoon wedding ceremony. It will be nice to wear something bright and nice, which is the white one. Another friend of mine said also, that it is not good to wear white dress on the wedding day. Only the bride is allowed to wear white. But I don't care, hehehe.....

Back to the title of the blog. I was watching this movie on last Friday. I like Andy Lau since there was Return of Condor Heroes during my elementary school. And until now, I am still amazed that his face is remain the same (no wrinkles). I think he had face lifting or plastic surgery. As handsome as ever hahahaha..... But as typical kung fu modernist, all the people are died. And they all died because of woman and crown.

Was eating AYAM PENYET before. And bump into my old school mate, but I did not say hi to her, and she did not also. We only stare each other with puzzled look (try to find out whether we knew each other) for a 2seconds. I will check her friendster to confirm whether she is the right person. I am having another call from company again this weekend. I can't understand, why this always happen during weekends. Why I can't get holiday. I want to quit, but have no guts to do it.

Today JH and I accompanied one of JH's friend from Oz, Melborne. He is JH's colleague, and he is a very good Christian. I like him, very mature and a deep thinker. But still like super heroes though (every guy always had their child side). He is handsome. I can say so. Hahhaaha....JH stared at me with strange look when I said that. ^_^
.

Wed

2007-12-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

Wed is not Wednesday, but it is for WEDDING! The first college friend who is married, is my high school friend. Amazingly! The wedding was very beautiful. Held in the beautiful Catholic church. Modern and elegant. My friend is a very pretty gal, and she was the most beautiful lady on that day. We prepared her wedding since few days back. We were helping her for the choir for the wedding sermon. It was simple and nice. It was raining that day, but made the day even more beautiful.

The wedding bouquet was thrown. And guess who caught it? My best friend a.k.a my flat mate. But actually at that point of time nobody really tried to get the bouquet. All of us just stunned there, and only her tried to caught the bouquet before the bouquet fell in the ground. And she immediately ran to my other friend who will have her wedding SOON! Hahaha..... In the end, the bride and bridegroom dance together. And they were so beautiful. I said to myself to learn a ballroom dance before I am getting married. Hehehe. That was a very memorable day, until the company is calling you. Hix!

On the Saturday, I spent a good quality time with JH. Sharing about my stressed *again! And finally, I found out what God wants me to learn from my current situation. It was not easy. But I will continue to try. At least I knew what I need to learn.

I was attending my old friend bday on the previous Friday, and found out to be a stranger in the midst of people there. I am no longer knew anyone there. Life goes on. People is having new friends, new society. Our friends were not the same anymore. At that kind of situation, actually I was benefited to know more people. But now, I am not keen on knowing new people or even start a conversation with them. I do not know why. Is it my personality? Or I am changing?

Weekend story

2007-11-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

Jumat ini, Jh with very sweet, he asked me to go for a movie at Bukit Batok. And amazingly we enjoyed this movie. It was so cute and funny. The first time I saw Jh enjoying a movie that I chose, hehehe....... I really high recommended the movie, because it was very beautiful. Gisselle really talented in making dresses, hehehe.

Hari Sabtu, kita pagi2 jalan ke Botanical Garden, bentar sih soalnya jam 12 nya ada latihan choir buat weddingnya T&M di rumah gue. Lumayan enjoyable. Tadinya mau cari food court buat beli botol air, eh ga taunya nyasar ke Librarynya botanical garden. Asik loh, sepi n comfortable. Terus kita pulang, latian choir. Abis itu pergi ke City Hall sambil nungguin JH yang lagi menghadiri ordination pendetanya. Liat2 baju terus naksir ada dress lucu, warna pastel. Huh, sayang si JH ga niat. Dia marah2 soalnya saya boros lah, bete banget. Akhirnya kita pergi ke TCC buat ngopi n dinner. It was very comfy and cozzy. I like it v much, I can sleep there. And the environment was very good (the one at NAFA). Unfortunately there was an Angmoh, from nowhere (sit next to our table) came and approached us. At first he only asked about camera, (he brought his camera and shown the picture he took at the zoo the day before, at night scene). The picture was not too good because of blur. Then suddenly he started telling story about his trip, start from Brisbane (his originality), then Singapore, Bangkok, Chiang Mai, back to Bangkok and Singapore (current). He shown all the photos one by one. Wow.....ckckckckc bener2 membosankan hahahaha...... Saya duduk di sebrang JH ampe ngantuk2. Untung orgnya cuman ngomong ama JH.

Ini poto kopi mahal yang rasanya sama aja (ga beda ama Kopi O di hawker center, namanya "Blue Mountain"). Harganya 12 dolar! Tapi cangkirnya bagus sih.

Ini poto kopi mahal bersama dompet mahal hehehe, belated bday gift from my flatmate dearest friend. Very classy, and it is LIZ CLAIRBORNE! huahahahaha....senangnyaaaaa.... Makasih Yollllllll!

Hari ini ke gerejanya JH (English sevice). Very nice, ada PARABLE of PENCIL. Hehehe lucu n creative deh. Terus jalan2 bentar di OG. Akhirnya malah belanja bantal JEAN PErry seharga 10dlr doank (empuk n gendut). Ama beli seprei 24 dlr beli 1 gratis 1, ternyata motif warnanya ga sama kayak di gambarnya. Huhuhu... jadinya besok mau dateng lagi buat nuker.

Terus dinnernya di HANABI $30, buffet ala carte. Hehehe makan sashimi... (tapi eneg euy...)

Beberapa poto lama pas gua n Yoli ikutan lari

2007-11-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

Ini poto di HP yg belon sempet gua upload dari dulu hehehe. Ini pas gua n Yoli lari di Sentosa yang 4 km. Pose pas start n finish. Sebenernya start ama finishnya di tempat yang sama, cuman bannernya ngadepnya beda aja. Hahaha.... jadi sengaja pose di situ.

Potong rambut

2007-11-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Setelah mikir2 and ngerasa mulai kepanasan dan susahnya rambut kepanjangan, akhirnya memutuskan buat potong rambut. Ga extreme pendek, ga beda lah. Cuman minta poni hehehe.... Tapi jujur gua ngerasa dibohongin ama tukang potong rambutnya, dicharge 30dlr. huh, terus dia sll nanyain gua, "You understand right?" Dia pikir gua ga ngerti bahasa inggris, nyebelin banget. Gua ga mau dtg lagi ke situ.

Mana ngehina rambut gua minyakan lah.

Movie and dinner

2007-11-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

We were watching bratz! on last Thursday and it was fun! It was typical story of high school students and friendship. It just looked like High School Musical. The bad girl was exactly the same type, blond pretty and selfish hahaha.....

I like the settings, the FASHION! All the clothes are cute and pretty, want to check it out and copy, hehehe....

On Friday, my colleagues and me, we all having an outing, dinner together on a restaurant that I picked, since I am the event organizer. I am becoming the monthly event organizer. It is always tough when figuring out the place to eat, since there are vegetarians among the groups. Sigh.... I think they did not like my choice of food this time, it was international buffet but though, not much choices on food. It was about 41 dlr, thx to my UOB card which is giving 10% off, so we need not to pay 10% tax hahaha (but still expensive).

I ate alot hohoho......I ate sashimi, oooo....SALMON there are very nice. I love it. Bye2 my dear ex-eqp eng counterpart, hopefully you find better place on your new working place.

Something that bother me, is that my dearest colleague, who helped me soooo much, said something. He said God is nothing, Jesus Christ is not exist, nobody saw Him in the history. I actually wanted to debate back, hmphhhhh......I hate it.

sakit perut

2007-11-13T11:17:00.000+08:00

Hari ini ga kerja gara2 pagi2 pas minum kopi sebelon berangkat kerja sakit perut banget2. Terus memutuskan utk MC buat hari ini. Kembali bobo n baru bangun. Eh bangun2 masih sakit juga, dikit sih. Betenya tetep ada telp dari kantor. Berkali2.

Kenapa yah kok rasanya malas seekali kerja. Padahal kalo dipikir2 lumayan loh. Gua juga berani MC soalnya gara2 ga byk kerjaan buat gua. Soalnya kalo kita ga masuk jgn sampe menyusahkan org laen.

Weekend

2007-11-11T16:46:00.000+08:00

Weekend ini lumayan berarti. Kita pas Sabtu ngobrol2 ama Pastor Nicky n his wife. Just knew that Kartidaya was very near my place. They reminded us alot about our struggle in workplace as well as the calling. I have been so busy that I was never prayed about this issue.

And guess what, I got new laptop, Tablet PC HP!!!! Not got lor, bought. My bro bought on Thurs and gave to me yest. It cost me 1500. uhuyyyy.....happy!!! And now I was writing this blog using the laptop!!

I was buying new bed sheet also yest at Clementi central. Cheap....but it make me feel having new bed! I washed already and ready for use!

Mooncake festival poto

2007-11-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

NTU makin kreatip aja sekarang. Mooncake festivalnya diadain di garden apa sih namanya yg deket chinese heritage. Tapi gelap2an sih. Banyak badut2 gitu yang bisa dipotoin.

Aduh kangennya ama NTU, huhuhu mau donk ke NTU

Ketinggalan poto di tengah Time Square

2007-11-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

Itu toko2 buka sampe jam 2 pagi loh!

New York and Madam Tussaud

2007-11-11T16:26:00.000+08:00

Ini subwaynya pokoknya jelek deh, percaya ama gua...

Poto di depan New York Library n Rockefeller center

Ini Hellen Keller loh!

Poto bersama boyband (ayo masih inget ga boyband apa) n girlband. Itu cewe sapa ya yg jungkir balik di tiang?

Simon, menurut anda siapa yang paling berbakat ?

Aduh gua lupa ini siapa ya namanya, tapi gayanya lucu jadi kita ikutin aja

Benerin dasi n kacamata Bill Gates. Bono liat ke kamera donk!

Ngobrol bersama Pak Bush. Eitsss.....ditonjok nih, tolongg....

Salju and Boston

2007-11-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

Kita ke Ben and Jerry factory, dapet ice cream gratis juga senangnya enak loh ... Sayangnya kita dateng pas Minggu jadinya pabriknya ga lagi jalan. Tapi tetep seneng kok.

Terus kita pergi ke Cannon mountain, naek kereta gantung ampe paling atas, terus tiba2 kok ada putih2 eh SALJU!!!!!!!! Huaaa seneng banget loh! Baru pertama kali liat n pegang salju seumur idup gua hehehe..... Bahagia. Ini dipoto pas matanya agak kelilipan salju, abis anginnya lumayan kenceng. Licin loh...

Terus kita poto2 di Harvard!!!! ini pendiri uni Harvardnya loh

Nah ini MIT (keliatan ga tulisannya di bagian atas pilar2 itu)

Makan lobster loh enaknya dan puas bo!

Canada

2007-11-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

Kita ke Thousands Islands naek kapal kelililing2 gitu. Katanya sih itu tempat dressing Thousands Island yg buat salad itu loh dibikin pertama kali. Pulaunya itu kecil2 n tiap pulau itu dibangun rumah2 keren punyanya org kaya. Tempat itu bakal rame kalo musim panas, soalnya jadi kayak villa gitu lah buat org jalan2.

Terus kita ke Parlemen di Ottawa, keren sekali gedungnya, tapi betenya ga bisa masuk soalnya uda tutup. Di belakangnya ada Library yang keren juga. Pas acara di TV kemaren ini yang "I do, let's eat", ceritanya weddingnya diadain di tempat ini loh, terus dikasih liat bagian dalemnya, huaaa....keren loh! Sayang waktu itu ga msk.

Ini poto Terry Cox yang sakit kanker n ngumpulin dana dengan dia lari (kaki kanannya kan agak lumpuh gitu).

Kenapa gua poto ama ni patung? Soalnya kemaren2 ini gua ikutan larinya (si Terry Cox akhirnya mati, soalnya ga kuat larinya, terus sejak saat itu tiap taon jadi ada lari buat kanker buat kumpulin dana yg di sponsorin ama 4 Season hotel). Kita pas kemaren ini lari di Sentosa. 2 Km kalo ga salah, gua jalan akhirnya halfway.Kita nekad lari (gua n Yoli), mana larinya musti bayar.

Nah ini kita poto di depan gereja yang katanya si Celine Dion married di situ loh (sekali lagi kita ga masuk ke dalemnya)

Indahnya daun Maple di musim gugur

Kita rencananya mau jalan2 di tempat shopping terkenal Saint Catherine jam 7 malem. Tebak! Semuanya tutup! Bete, meski weekend mereka tetep tutup jam 5 sore loh, mungkin gara2 ngikut budaya Eropa.

Not good

2007-11-09T12:43:00.000+08:00

Before going to the office this morning, even from last night, I already had bad feeling. As usual I felt very hard to go to office, very scared. All negative thinking came out. I thought of why I am so messed up. I felt I had failed to do all my duties, all are lack behind. I did not do them on time. And always compare with my colleagues who are very dedicated and very responsible on everything what they were doing.

I felt I can't follow their pace, so fast, and I was so slow. I felt I can't be productive. I can't contribute anything, I always gave problems instead with my carelessness.

I felt that this was not my place. I am not belong here. It is too tough for me. I tend to runaway from problems. I just want to quit. I can't continue motivating myself.

I want a place where I can do productive things. That they want me there. That I can contribute things.

Today, I was very stressed until do not know why my left hand shaking by itself when I carried a paper. Right hand is ok. I remembered my father also had the same thing, which in the end it was because one of the enzymes not working properly and I saw on tv also a lady who can't control her hand, shaking, and going to die. Am I?

Sighhh......I don't like here, want to gat out from here.

Hersheys and Niagara

2007-11-08T08:07:00.000+08:00

Kita ke Hershey beli2 coklat n liat pabrik coklat. Sebenernya nothing special, cuman lucu2 aja logo2 coklat mereka.

Terus kita nginep di Buffalo. Kalo nonton BRUCE ALMIGHTY, tuh si Bruce dari Buffalo hehehe ada NIagaranya, diliat dari sisi Canada n Amrik. Jauh lebih bagus dari yang Canada side.

Di depan Niagara yg Canada ada taman2 gitu, bagus deh hehehe....poto2 di situ.

Terus kita ke Uninya Toronto buat poto2 doank.

Philadelphia + DC

2007-11-08T07:49:00.000+08:00

Philadelphia, tempat terkenal keju yang jadi bahan buat cheese cake, amazingly di sana lebih murah loh kejunya. Mau bawa pulang ga bisa, soalnya bisa leleh n jadi ga enak.

Ini tour guidenya krg jago cerita soal sejarah2 di sana, jadi alhasil kita ga tau apa2. Soalnya kita ke liberty bell, terus pas liat jadi bengong " Apaan nih, bel jelek n retak gini kok dikasih liat", hahahaha....pas pulang, n ceritain ke JH, ternyata bel nya itu terkenal banget.

Ada juga di rombongan kita yg suka koleksi kaosnya Hard Rock, jadinya kita ke mana2 pasti dia cari kaos Hard Rock, dan akhirnya gua ikutan hehehe.....Gua beli 1 buat JH pas di DC n buat gua sendiri di Boston!

Dari situ kita terus ke WASHINGTON DC! Ga sempet liat white housenya, payah banget, kita dikasih liat dari pager jauh banget. Terus ke suatu gedung putih, gua lupa, itu mungkin gedung parlemennya, tapi gua liat org2 emang banyak poto2 di situ juga. Bagus loh!

Terus ke Lincoln itu lah, kuburan/memorialnya dia, gua jadi keinget Planet of the Apes, yg org kelempar ke dunia monyet2, dia pas dateng pertama kali ke settingnya jaman amerika yang modern cuman monyet2 semua, terus Abraham Lincoln memorialnya jadi monyet gede pake jas n duduk hahahha.....

Di tempat kerja

2007-11-07T09:42:00.000+08:00

Tebak gua yang mana hayo........lengkap pake pakaian ninja

Sakit lagi.....sakit lagi.....

2007-11-07T09:29:00.000+08:00

Seperti biasa, gua selain dapet woman's periodically visit, juga dapet flu bulanan yg plg ga sebulan gua MC 1 hari hahahaha.....

Duh, parah, kali ini idung gua stuck! Buntu! sampe susah napas, pas bobo juga. Mana tenggorokan geli2 ga jelas. Pengen berenang cuman takut masuk angin

Poto2 pas jalan2

2007-11-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

Poto sebelon berangkat ke US di Changi......jadi inget pas waktu itu.....penerbangan yang cukup lama dan melelahkan, transit pula di Frankfurt Jerman, tapi ga liat apa2 bo, lgs menuju nunggu pesawat lanjutan.

New York, here we came! Dateng2 lgs ke Liberty! Bener2 US itu beda dari bayangan gua. Ternyata tempatnya lumayan amburadul. Banyak pengamen, pengemis, de el el deh di taman2, jadi serem, mana tour guidenya nakut2in katanya free gun di US, jadi bisa ditodong gitu lah.

Naek kapal buat ke patung Libertynya. Ga bisa naek ke atas, jadi cuman di bawah aja poto2.

Ini salah satu sign subway bawah tanahnya.

Serius itu subway jelek banget, kotor gelap, hiiiii......kalo bisa ga mau deh!

Birthday is my name!

2007-11-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hari ini hari ultah!!!! Uhuyyyy......hepi banget. Dapet dress dari JH asikkk......Pokoknya hari ini bahagia deh, hehehe.....tumben2nya. Biasanya bete kalo ultah soalnya selalu ngerasa, "kok gini doank sih". Tapi hari ini beda, somehow gua merasa JH sweet banget hari ini. Pulang ke rumahnya, ganti baju n pake parfum khusus buat pergi ama gua. Dan parfum yang dipake dia itu sama banget pas 1st date kita, jadi keinget masa2 dulu, pas kita masih malu2 hahaha....

Makin tua, gua merasa keriput mulai keliatan, muka uda ga sekenceng dulu. Mata gua selalu jadi mata item panda yang bengkak gara2 kurang tidur. Terus kan ga biasa pake bedak/penghias muka laennya, kok jadi keliat pucet banget, kalo dulu keliatan seger.

Ditraktir makan di restoran Jepang di Far East, sebenernya cuman sate2 bakar gitu, tapi mahal banget. Menurut gua sih rasanya sate biasa, ga ada bedanya, tapi yah jangan bikin JH kecewa deh.

Jadi semangat nulis blog nich....

Abis jalan-jalan

2007-11-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

Dulu pernah posting, tentang jalan2 ke Israel, postingan yg dulu belon selese, gua uda jalan2 lagi ke US huahahaha......dasar org stress emang perlu jalan2 terus.

Kali ini bayar pake duit ndiri tapi pergi sekeluarga. Hiks....sedihnya gaji 1.5 bulan gua ilang gitu aja dalam waktu 2 minggu jalan2. Kerja yg berbalutkan air mata dan keringat gua, serta deg2annya kalo tidur malem n weekend. Kapan sih penderitaan ini bakal berakhir. Jeko si pengeluh yg dari dulu uda ceritain ke semua org. Deklarasi kalo lagi stress n mau pindah kerja, sampe detik ini ternyata masih di tempat kerja yg sama dan tetep sama menderitanya.

Ini beneran bingung, cari kerja ga ada yg manggil2 interview, lagian apply kerjanya juga choosie sih, ga mau eng n de el el, kriteria perusahaan MNC, ga mau Jepang/Singaporean company soalnya welfare kurang n dperes tenaga abis2an. Mau berhenti aja tanpa dapet kerja baru juga ga berani n ga ada yg dukung sih tepatnya. Kadang2 gua mikir gua bisa gila n depresi kalo kayak gini. Ya sudah lah gua bisa apa. Kalo Tuhan mau gua di sini terus gua mau gimana lagi coba? Gua coba cari2 juga lagi.

Kalo dipikir2 gua total punya 3 blog, ato 4 ya. 1 di blogdrive, 1 lagi di blogspot (yg ini), 1 di live spacenya MSN (tapi ini punya private gua, jadi ga dipublish utk umum), terus ga salah dulu di Hi-5 pernah bikin juga pas jaman2 exam lagi stress belajar di libr malah maen2 internet.

Ini yah, org2 tuh kayaknya pengen nyuri2 baca diary org, sekarang uda dipublish buat umum kaga dibaca malahan (maksudnya si JH).

Udah ah disambung kapan2.

Bukan Bintang Biasa

2007-08-11T14:37:00.001+08:00

Kalo buka website indo, jadi kangen pilem2 indo. Ada 1 yg kelihatannya bagus deh, penulisnya Melly Goeslow loh

National Day

2007-08-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Sehari sebelon National Day, gw ambil half day buat mengikuti salah satu assessement test dari company X. Abis itu, merencanakan dinner. Masak bersama si Merah Muda, haha..... Dan poto di samping adalah hasil masakan kita.

Ada steak, terus baked potato, dan calamari plus onion ring, wah enaknya.... Sebenernya kita cape masaknya, soalnya bayangkan kita goreng satu2 itu cumi ama onion ringnya, duileh itu kompor uda kecripatan minyak, apalagi lantai dapur, serasa minyak di mana, licin2 ga jelas.

Hari ini, batal berenang (sudah diduga sebelonnya) terus kita jalan2 di orchard cihuyyy....Nonton The Simpson di The Cathay bareng flatmate, temennya flatmate n koko gua. Ada 2 tiket ntn gratis dapet dari Marigold, jadi kita beli 2 extra lagi n dibagi 4. Abis itu makan di Pho Lan restoran Vietnam di deket Rendezvous Hotel. Dilanjutkan dgn shopping di METRO! Soalnya gua dikasih voucher 50dlr ama JH. Gua lgs shopping di G2000, horeee.....beli banyak banget.

Hiks sebenernya gua masih ngincer cardigan item dari Bossini, tapi sayang uda ga ada di mana2 lagi.

Ini poto The Simpsonnya:

Update

2007-07-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Gile uda lama bgt kaga pernah ngurusin blog ini. Hahaha....maklum uda kerja jadinya ga sempet buka2 internet lagi di luar jam kerja.

Ga kerasa banget uda ampir setaun setelah kelulusan dari NTU, berarti uda ampir setaun juga kerja. Dan dunia kerja itu bener2 kaga enak (menurut gua). Kalo mau tanya, cobalah tanya ama jh ato flatmate gua, yg sll mendengar keluhan2 gua hahaha.

Sekarang, gara2 stress banget ama kerjaan, jadi super boros. Pulang kerja kalo kemaleman suka naek taxi (pdhal kaga bisa nge-claim) dan kalo jalan2 juga, kalo pulangnya kemaleman naek taxi juga (kalo ama jh doank). Terus kalo makan juga pengennya yg mahal2, seperti restoran jepang ato makan steak. Suka banget nonton bioskop (bisa2 seminggu sekali, kalo ada pilem yg lumayan), beli2 baju dan sendal tiap minggu (jalan2 cari sendal dan baju maksudnya, kalo beli mah kaga tiap minggu). HUaaaa jadi menggila super duper boros.

Gua pun uda menggendut, dulu sempet mengurus gara2 stress kerja, ga napsu makan, ga bisa tidur, eneg2 gitu lah. CUman gua bertekad, ngapain ampe sakit2 segala cuman gara2 kerja. Terus jadi kembali ke normal (buat napsu makan), tapi stressnya tetep.

Gua memproklamasikan bahwa tempat kerja gua bener2 terrible! Instead of the colleagues are nice (but not so nice until can be your best friends, they are just merely 'colleagues'). Kalo tidak percaya, tanyakan pada teman saya berinisial SF yg sudah pindah kerja ke tempat laen, juga sama BT yg baru aja masuk buat magang di sini. Gua mengutip perkataannya, "This is a terrible place to work. Sangat mengerikan!". Bayangkan saudara2.

Sigh.....yah lagi cari2 di tempat laen juga, gua akan segera pindah. Tapi, jujur ga tau mau pindah ke mana. Gua jadi trauma cari kerja sbg engineer (kok gua gampang trauma ya, inget ga dulu gua trauma pas interview kerja?). Jadi mau beralih kerja ke bidang lain.

Journey for pilgrims

2007-05-12T08:02:00.000+08:00

Fiuhhh.... It has been a long time. Seems like I am dissapeared. The toughest part of my life has passed, dunno whether another one will come. Like I have mentioned before, on Feb my mentor took leave for 2 weeks. My life was so miserable back then. I went back on 9.15 (from company) every day (one time at 10), not because I had finished the job, it was because already late. It was a never ending job.

I took my leave on the next month, for 2.5 weeks. It was so exciting and wonderful journey. My family and relatives went for a tour to Israel. It was so amazing. You stepped into holyland. The same city as Jesus had lived before 2000 years ago. So many things to explore and to learn. My tour guide was a Jewish who can speak Indonesia very well. He is a Catholic, he is very deep when explaining the historical places in the Bible. All of us learnt a lot of Jewish culture there. How they still preserved this Sabbath day. They Sabbath day is on Friday-Saturday. And they can't work/do anything on that day, so they will stay at hotel. Even to press a button in the lift they can't. So there will be special lift for Sabbath which will stop in every floor!

Since we were coming near the passover (Easter, but they celebrated it for passover to celebrate their freedom from Egypt), the food was terrible. The hotel only provide "KOSHYER" food (like hallal for Muslim). no bread! We had to eat "roti tak beragi".

They can't mix cutlery/cooking utensil which are being use for milk and for meat. They have 2 separate cutlery.

Anyway, the weather is so nice. Cold and cozy, scenary also beautiful. In every historical places, surely there will be churc stand there. Beautiful churches.

You know what? When we passed the boundaries/check point in Isarel, the guard there were youngster. Really, they were guys and girls, so cool.

We went to Galilea, Jerussalem, Bethlehem, Dead Sea, Jordania. It was fun.

When we got back to Indonesia, we were so tired. Then Jiun Horng came to Jakarta. To be continue.......

Keinget Jadul

2007-01-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

Gua menulis blog ini di taon baruan. Ntah kenapa tadi baca2 blog terus keinget temen lama gua, jadinya buka friendster. Terus jadi surprise banget, temen gua, uda jadian selama 7.5 taon! Wow amazing.

Cewenya sekolah di Jepang, cowonya di Amrik. Dan mereka masih langgeng and romantis. Jadi teringet jaman dulu pas SMA. Cowonya itu temen satu angkatan gua. Orangnya heboh banget, agak bandel tapi pinter juga. Cewenya satu angkatan di bawah gua. Dia orangnya lincah ceria dan pinter juga. Mereka dua-duanya cinta Tuhan banget dan aktif pelayanan. Cewenya temen sepelayanan di PSK (Persekutuan Siswa Kristen). Dia orang yang menurut gua sangat gua admire, semangat dan dedikasinya ke Tuhan. Hix.... Jadi terkenang jaman SMA. Seru-serunya pelayanan, persekutuan.

Ada lagi senior gua yang uda lama juga ama cowonya. Senior cewe yang bener2 admirable, hehehe.

Jadi look back and see what happen with my friends, and reflect back to myself. Orang2 yang dulu rajin pelayanan, satu persekutuan, apa mereka masih giat? apa mereka masih cinta Tuhan seperti dulu? Atau bahkan jadi lebih lagi?

Terus gua sendiri gimana? Gua merasa jadi lebih mendunia. Jadi lebih mikirin diri sendiri dan pekerjaan gua. Gua pengen jadi seperti dulu lagi. Apa yang menghalangi gua ya? Kangen temen2, kangen pelayanan, kangen persekutuan. Masih ragu, apa bisa ya ke gereja mandarin?

Hari yang membosankan dan sepi

2006-12-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

Hari ini saya masak sup dan sawan mushi. Hasilnya? Sakit perut! Hix sedihnya....

Ga belajar sampe detik ini, menjaga cucian supaya ga kehujanan dan sekalian memastikan cucian kering (mengarahkan kipas angin ke jemuran) hehehe...

Sigh....bener2 sepi. Nonton pilem India berjudul Chameli. Not bad, beda dari pilem India biasanya. Cerita tentang realita kehidupan. Seorang cowo financial consultant yang terjebak di tengah hujan karena mobilnya mogok, jadinya dia berteduh di koridor jalanan dan berkenalan ama Chameli, seorang perempuan ga bener, tapi pada dasarnya dia baek. Mereka berbagi cerita dan kisah, dan saling ngebantuin (soalnya si Chameli banyak dikejar2 lintah darat).

What a melancholic evening.

Memutuskan utk dinner apa ya? Masakan tadi siang kah? Still thinking....

Happy New Year

2006-12-30T10:19:00.000+08:00

Pheuwww.... December has been a tough month for me. A lot of issues came, or perhaps the month I started to "memberanikan" my self to take the challanges, take responsibilities. I asked too many questions without put any thoughts. Just to get the answer or solution right away. In my company business, solutions and decissions should be taken fast, is a mufacturing industry anyway. You can't pend too long or you can delay the manufacturing process. Hix......

Yesterday I just got a news that my mentor will take leave on February for 3 weeks. Oh no.... I can't imagine how my life will be. I have to back up his machine, hix I still have problems with my machine.

My best buddy went back to Indonesia for 3 weeks, my boyfriend back to Malaysia for 3 days. That's why I decided to write blog, if they are around, I preferred to spend time with them. I just realized how precious my weekend is.

On Thursday I will be having quiz on my training, so I have to study during this holiday.

Yesterday, manufacturing guy scolded me, hix... so bad. I think it is my fault. I always delay my job because I am scare to make mistake, but that is the whole point, I never take initiative.

I really wish I can go back to Indonesia soon. March? My parents want to go Israel, should I join them?

Curhat di Sabtu pagi

2006-11-25T07:18:00.000+08:00

It's 7 am in the Saturday morning and I am here blogging. I usually wake up at 6.30 everyday. During the weekend I wake up aroun 9 o'clock. But, for the past 2 weeks, I always wake up early as well. Yup I have a stressful work environment, at least for me. I always dream about my colleagues and stuff at work that make me wake up everytime.

I don't know why, I always complaining about my work. Every moment and every time, you must have the right answer. I feel my boss is a very selfish person, although I feel he is nice when you are not his subordinates. He always pushes you, looks you with synical eyes whenever you don't know the answers from his question. A look that really look you down, as if he is saying, "You are useless". I understand why he does this, because if he can't find this answers he is the one who will be wacked by his upper boss. Ya....... They are driven by "as long as I don't get wacked". So people tend to find each other mistakes instead of working as a team.

This is just "working" from a single point of view.

Yup, I don't really enjoy my job. I questioned, is there anyone out there who really enjoy their job like crazy? Because I am not. And it's already more than 3 months.

Besides, I am a very soft spoken and timid person. I always scare that I dissapoint my boss, which I think I have already done it. I always think low about my self, that I am not capable of everything, that I am the weakest on my team. Hix.....

I am even too scare to move job since I felt I couldn't stand any interviews. I am jealous with people who has high confidence.

Cantonese Hot Pot ala Yolanda

2006-11-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Kemaren, my dear friend as well as my flat mate, yoli merencanakan surprise hot pot birthday celebration. Wuahhhhhh.....terharu banget. Ga nyangka! Gw senengggg banget, selain dari berlimpahnya makanan, kita jadi ngumpul2 bareng. Flat gua yang mungil sempit ini medadak jadi penuh dan heboh hahaha..... Senengnya!

Sehari sebelonnya, gua jalan2 di west mall bersama JH, mendadak ketemu lala, haha.....dasar si lala, dia sebenernya mau cari kado buat gua (menurut pengakuan pribadi dari dia), tapi sungguh malang nasibnya karena ktm ama gua n JH. Makanya pas gua tanyain, mau ke mana, dari mana, etc.... Gelagatnya aneh. Seperti menyembunyikan sesuatu hahaha... Terus si JH seperti biasa dia ntah sengaja/ngga sepertinya ngebocorin. Hahhaa....akhirnya gua mencium rencana ini. Besok paginya, gua bangun jam 9 pagi n ngeliat yoli lagi sibuk masak di dapur, barulah gua ngerti hhehehe.....Malem sebelonnya juga uda liat di kulkas, kok banyak bgt makanan di dalem.

Seru banget n menyenangkan, uda lama kita ga ngumpul bareng. Thanks alot guys. Specially for this sweet girl: Yoli, thanks for preparing everything alone, from buying the ingridient until cook/chop the food. Hehehe.....

One day before my birthday

2006-11-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hari ini jadi hari yang gua nantikan. Hari Sabtu, gua spend di rumah aja, tidur, baca presentasi slide, makan, nonton, dll. Hari ini JH janji bakal nemenin gua seharian, eh setengah hari lah. Soalnya hari Senin gua les mandarin, jadinya ga bisa pergi ke mana2. Jadi terpaksa dirayain sehari lebih awal. Sabtu malem, gua uda ga sabar nunggu hari ini. Sabtunya gua bobo ampir jam 2an, gara2 dengerin e-learning dari company gua. Pagi2nya uda ga sabar banget pengen bangun.

Dari gereja, jalan2 bentar di rafles city-city link, karena kita janjian ketemu di city hall jam 12. Pas ke Mark n Spencer, gua melihat diskon gede2an. Bayangin, Mark n Spencer jual baju seharga 15dlr men! Tapi gua ga tergoda, soalnya bajunya polos2 and gua kebetulan uda punya warna itu.

Terus jalan2 di HMV, ketemu vcd pilem korea yang Jumat malem baru aja diputer. Yang maen Won Bin, judulnya My Brothers. Dan harganya cuman 4dlr! Asiiik....

Gua tadinya pengen ke Suntec buat liat rak buku 10dlr di Carrefour, sekalian pengen liat2 Bossini soalnya lagi bagus2 print di t shirtnya terus macem2 pula.

Ternyata JH ga mau ke Suntec, dia uda plan something buat gua, n gua agak kecewa sih ama plan dia. Kemaren ini dia sempet bilang kalo dia bakal kasih 2 kado. Kado pertama adalah sebuah devotional book, yang gua uda mentah2 ga mau. Soalnya gua merasa uda satisfy ama Our Journey, buku renungan yg gua pake tiap hari. Tapi ya sudah karena dipaksa2 buat ambil ya uda lah. Terus kado ke-2nya katanya something else, dan ternyata adalah kalo dia bakal spend waktu setengah hari buat gua. Doh!@ Bukannya itu uda pasti ya, napa pula jadi kado.

Ternyata yg dia prepare itu adalah, kalo kita bakal ngadain spiritual journey bareng di Botanical Garden. Weleh! Bukannya gua ga mau, gua sih suka2 aja, cuman kenapa musti di hari ultah gua. Gua uda dandan cakep2 pake rok n baju warna kesukaan gua, pake sendal putih, pokoknya macthing semua deh! Mikirnya bakal diajak nge-date gitu. Eh diajak ke Botanical Garden. Gua ngambek banget, terus kita ke Armenian Church dulu sebelon ke Botanical Gardennya.

Pas di Botanical Garden, itu pas abis ujan turun, jadinya becek2, gua jalan pleat pleot pake sendal hak. Ternyata cukup menarik dan menyenangkan ke Botanical Garden. Kita ga jadi spiritual journey, yang ada malah kita liat2 pemandangan. Ada ansa, bebek, kura2, ikan koi, squirrel. Menikmati pemandangan alam.

Terus melanjutkan perjalanan ke sebuah tempat (yang gua juga ga tau), kayak gedung kecil gitu. Ada yang jualan ice cream, terus jadi pengen nyobain, soalnya rame banget di situ, namanya ISLAND CREAMER. Tempatnya homy banget, mereka jualan macem2 ice cream home made, dengan rasa yang unik2, seperti: nutella, teh tarik, dst. Gua milih makan Baked Alaska Caked, yummmyyy ..... enak. Tempatnya lucu, kita boleh poto2 terus disediain printer ama kertas poto, jadi kita boleh nge print poto di situ terus disuruh tempel di tembok. Pokoknya bener2 homy deh.

Terus kita melanjutkan perjalanan, tadinya pengen dinner di Country Manna di Novena, naek taxi 3.9dlr, eh ga taunya country manna-nya uda tutup. Akhirnya ke Novena Square and kita berakhir makan Fish n CO. Gua merasa kita sll makan Fish n Co, pesennya juga sll yang sama Platter for two haahha. Pelayannya baek banget, gua isi survey gua kasih excellent ama dia gua nominasiin. Hahahaha......

Udah ah, back to reality! Hapy Bday Jesica!

Bekerja

2006-11-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

Pekerjaan gua ini bener2 bikin gua stress. Gua merasa kok gua ga bisa2 ya. Uda 3 bulan loh, gua ngerti lah dikit2 tapi somehow masih banyak bolongnya. Boss gua jarang ngomong ama gua, n tiap kali dia ngomong ama gua, pasti dia nge-tes gua dengan wajah yang unsatisfied. Hiks bikin gua jadi sedih.

Terus gua juga merasa unwanted di departemen gua, sepertinya mereka pengen gua pindah hiks. Gua emang ga punya temen, sedih banget. Kayaknya gara2 gua introvert n pendiem. Cewe di departemen gua ada 3 orang, 2 uda married, 1 setaon di atas gua. Mereka always speak mandarin, itulah sebabnya gua akhirnya ngambil les mandarin. Cowo2nya sih ramah2. Cuman tetep aja gua beneran ga ada temen, ga ada temen buat ngobrol, ngungkapin kesedihan gua dst. Hiks........

Setiap hari pasti gua telpon JH ngeluh bla bla bla........tentang kerja. Sepertinya kok ga ada yg bisa di-give thanks dari kerjaan gua, dari colleague gua.

Sebenernya gua uda beneran harus bersyukur sih ganti mentor. Mentor gua yg sekaran baek banget, gua beneran ga takut tanya ke dia. Kalo yg dulu galak amit, tapi sekarang dia tiba2 jadi baek ama gua. Aneh ya?

Sebenernya itu hal yang harus gua syukurin sih.

Terus yah seneng juga ikutan training jadi bisa ketawa2 ketemu temen2. Tapi serem juga, karena berarti expektasinya makin tinggi ke gua.

Tiap kali selalu ngitung hari buat weekend. Sebenernya kerjaannya menurut gua lumayan menarik, cuman karena takut ama atasan, jadi stress.....

Movie review from vcd

2006-10-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

Tadi nonton vcd judulnya Together. Bagus banget. Pokoknya top banget, tentang maen biola. Anak kecilnya jagooo banget....terus bapaknya ama big sisternya baekkk.....guru biolanya juga baekkk....bagus banget deh pokoknya.

Spritually

2006-10-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

Barusan ditelpon JH, disuruh doain soal panggilan hidup alias "the call". Padahal sejak STEPS kemaren uda berkomitmen mau doain, tapi berhubung masih bingung, jadinya disaranin, yg penting hidup deket ama Tuhan, nanti Dia bakal reveal. Yang paling penting deket ama Tuhan dulu.

Terus jadi kepikiran, selama ini, setiap hari yang gua pikirin pasti seputer KTB dan kerja. Gimana caranya nyiapin KTB, make sure semua jalan dan bisa prepare dgn baek. Terus kerjaan yang banyak tugas dari training intensif setaon. Sama yah mikirin buat diri sendiri yang cape n pengen relax. Terus ngejer pengen bener2 deket ama Tuhan, setia baca renungan, bener2 pengen mikirin God's word. Karena jujur gua SATE-nya di MRT dalam perjalanan ke tmpt kerja. Jadi pengen selesein baca alkitab dan buku renungannya sebelon sampe ke tempat kerja. Jadi kesannya buru2 gitu deh. Ga bisa beneran merenungkan. Mungkin musti 2 kali ya, pulnag kerja, renungin lagi, reflect back on what I have been doing.

Ngomong tentang doa dan panggilan, mungkin ntah knp belum dlm pikiran sama sekali, masih terus struggle hidup deket ama Tuhan dan ngatasin stres di tmpt kerja. Apa emang perlu dipikirin ya? Ato konsentrasi hidup deket Tuhan dulu....

Stress Moments

2006-10-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

Semenjak masuk ke dunia kerja, baru mulai menyadari yang namanya tanggung jawab. Di kerjaan gua dituntut tanggung jawab penuh dan ketelitian tinggi. Kalo slack dikit bisa dibentak2. Hiii.....seram. Setiap pagi gua bangun paling pagi di flat, yaitu jam 6.30 pagi, lalu mandi2 dan ganti baju dan lgs melesat ke MRT stasiun. Sebenernya bisa sih dapetin shuttle bus company di Jurong East yang jam 7.10, tapi somehow males turun2 (soalnya MRT Jur East bertingkat2) n bisa2 pas sampe bawah uda ditinggal. Jadinya selalu naek MRT yg jalur merah. Tiap pagi sll bangun dengan keadaan stress. Menghadapi dunia kerja.

Kemaren ini di gereja nyanyiin sebuah lagu bagus yang mengingatkan kalo Tuhan ngejagain kita.

Tuhan Memlihara Engkau

Janganlah takut kesusahan, Tuhan memlihara

Padanya ada perlindungan, Tuhan memlihara

Tetapkan hatimu, tentu Tuhan memlihara

Memlihara engkau, sepanjang umurmu

Uda sih gitu aja, cuman bagus banget. Kayaknya beneran ingetin kita kalo Tuhan memlihara. Kemaren ini kebetulan juga ketemu ama temen SD, yg pas SMA dapet beasiswa di Singapore, pas selama SMA masih sering contact2, eh pas di Sing ntah kenapa jadi jarang. Terus kemaren coincidence ketemu!! Seneng banget, banyak yang mau diobrolin tapi too little moments.

Update latest

2006-10-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

Yup, I have been absent from writing this blog. There were some changes in moshi-moshi village. I am no longer under the previous "guru". My new mentor is Mr. Prata. He is a nice guy. Yupppiieee...... I hope I can learn more from him. New responsibility coming out for me. I will in charge on 1 machine.

I have tasted the $26 buffet from Sakura international, at Science Center. I ate all the clamps, scallop, abalone, sashimi, lots of them. Very nice one. Quite ex, not many variety. But though it tasted quite nice and made me totally full. We concluded, they are not good on cooked food, only the raw food are.

Then somewhere last week, I had this welcoming dinner plus farewell dinner for one of my colleague. We went to eat at Yishun Palace Restaurant. Another buffet, but this is a la carte. We ordered almost 20 different type of food. We had big prawns in 2 types of cooking (drunken prawns and fried one), chili crab, cray fish (the granmother of prawns, looks like lobster), shark fin soup, 2 type of fish, 2 type of chicken, and other vegetable. And it cost me around $35 per person, but they said since this is to welcome me, so I don't need to pay yupppiieee....

I rather have dinner on Sakae/Sakura hahahaha....

Now is holiday.....I am very happy.....lalalala.....I almost sick, sore throat, runny nose.....not enough rest.....

Death Note addiction

2006-10-22T11:54:00.000+08:00

Another addiction. Hahaha, yesterday I watched this movie with one of my small group member. And you know what, I found this very very very interesting. A battle of inteligence and character between 2 smartest and cutest guy. One is a murderer, as simply as write down the name of people on the death note, and the other is a detective to solve this problem. Hahaha.....very smart plot story. There will be the sequel coming out this November in Japan. The story here haven't finished, still continuing for the sequel.

When I got back, I rushed to search on internet about the manga, and I got the website where I can get all the comic downloaded.

Then I read until I felt sick huhuhu..... Because I can't stand the story too slow, I read straight the end. He died.