Curhat di Sabtu pagi

It's 7 am in the Saturday morning and I am here blogging. I usually wake up at 6.30 everyday. During the weekend I wake up aroun 9 o'clock. But, for the past 2 weeks, I always wake up early as well. Yup I have a stressful work environment, at least for me. I always dream about my colleagues and stuff at work that make me wake up everytime.

I don't know why, I always complaining about my work. Every moment and every time, you must have the right answer. I feel my boss is a very selfish person, although I feel he is nice when you are not his subordinates. He always pushes you, looks you with synical eyes whenever you don't know the answers from his question. A look that really look you down, as if he is saying, "You are useless". I understand why he does this, because if he can't find this answers he is the one who will be wacked by his upper boss. Ya....... They are driven by "as long as I don't get wacked". So people tend to find each other mistakes instead of working as a team.

This is just "working" from a single point of view.

Yup, I don't really enjoy my job. I questioned, is there anyone out there who really enjoy their job like crazy? Because I am not. And it's already more than 3 months.

Besides, I am a very soft spoken and timid person. I always scare that I dissapoint my boss, which I think I have already done it. I always think low about my self, that I am not capable of everything, that I am the weakest on my team. Hix.....

I am even too scare to move job since I felt I couldn't stand any interviews. I am jealous with people who has high confidence.