Solicite

I never felt like this before. Today, I was really out of the world. I did not have people to converse with, no communication with normal people at all. I wrote friendster message to my old friend, chatted with 2 friends, and that's all. Virtual communication. Received sms from JH in the morning, 2 in the afternoon, 1 is from my mom asking how I am doing, and the other from a junior who changed her hp number haha.... I did not face anyone until 8pm? It was when JH came to have dinner at Botak jones. I cooked my lunch and dinner (I did not have any breakfast), so totally at home all day.

And I felt sick, headache. Haha...dunno whether this is true sickness or just because lack of interaction with human beings.

At Indonesia, at least I have my mom to talk with or perhaps my maids? Civilization exists there, but not at this house, nobody back home until 7.30pm perhaps? Haha....yup I felt lonely here.

I watched another Korean drama on channel U, because I was too boring to watch the quiz (The Price is Right) 2 times a day, in the afternoon and evening at channel 5. The girl on the movie was being fired as well and started to look for a new job, just like me! But she was very enthusiastic to find one (not like me). Maybe I have to follow the spirit. I still do not understand why I felt so desperate and a failure, I try to convince myself that I am not that bad, but the thought always come, specially when I am lonely, felt like talking to myself. Hiks......