Jobs Hunting is tiring

It's not just tiring but it's as well difficult and stressfull. I don't know whether it's trully that difficult or it's just me, too choosy or perhaps I really do not want to work. Sigh.....I am really tired looking for one. I am really not good at interview. I am not good at talking to people, that's why I am blogging. It does help me to release my feeling, which I hope the other person is reading this to know me better, but actually he doesn't. but anyway, I won't force him, it's shd be his free will if he wants to know me.

I just feel that I don't want to work. I just want to stay home do my stuff. People do this all the time, for housewife/mom, right? So why can't I ? What's wrong with that? He was saying that I am running away from works, because it was the only place that I am not protected, I need to work on my own. So what? What's wrong of wanting to be protected? Sigh....I felt so difficult, if I am forcing myself to be brave, eventhough I am not, do you think that I am lying to myself? What the other people want more of me? I am tired of following him. Sigh.... I really don't know at this point of time. He doubts, so do I right now, he's never satisfied. Sigh.....