Grace SCC 35th Mission Convention

If you just wondering of which church that I am going now, since it seems so mysterious that no one find me in Indonesian churches which exist in Singapore, I am at Grace SCC. What is SCC? Singapore Chinese Church. Huh, yes! I am in a chinese church and I can't speak mandarin at all. But don't worry, I am at the English Service, so I still can understand the message and can sing the song as well. To make everyone more understand the church, I will call the church is JH's church.

Hmm.... It sounds not right anymore, it's not just JH's church, but it becomes mine as well, hehehe =). The involvement in mission convention had made me having the sense of bellonging and it's fun! Previously, I am always complaining that I can't get along well with the people there, because they are married couples with children, I mean they are older than me, so sometimes I can't connect with their conversation. It's just sound so boring for me. Hmm....it's still now, but I am improving, to get interested, hehehe.

It's just a blessed Mission convention. The main speaker is from Australia, Rev. Allan Webb, from Swanston Church in Melbourne, their ministries are focusing on international students. He's already almost on 70s but still so energetic, and his message is so strong!!!!! Wow....

But this time, the same blog i read last time, is the one encourage me even more. How she really loves God and is close with God. I want to have such experience.

These few days have been so tiring for me, since we need to accompany one of the missionary from Africa to see Singapore. This evening, JH and I went out to buy something for him as a gift, then we just don't know what to buy, since the Christian bookstore is already close. So Jh said that why don't we pray, we asked God that we might meet another African, then we'll follow him/her to where she/he goes then perhaps we can now what African likes. Then I say, it's merely impossible to find African in mall. Then, we meet an African girl stood right behind us in the escalator! And we follow her all the way. Actually she was looking for dinner, but we passed through a shop then we decided to look into the store and..... we got a gift now!! Hahha....can you imagine how amazing it is? God is so near than what you are imagine.

I am really happy and encouraged by that.

Random Post

I was watching Ellen talkshow nowadays, and today she made a show for mom-to-be. She prepared even so called medical-man if somebody in the audience feel like giving birth. They also give nice toilets with TV, because she says that pregnant lady like to go to the toilet. And she gave all the mom a free CRIB from JC Penney. Wow!

Some ads I found at jobsDb that nowadays process eng salary can reach to $3,500-5,000. Wow, make me drilling. Will I apply? or Won't? I keep saying to myself that money isn't important.

Sssttt.... I have a secret

Hahaha.....gua punya 1 blog rahasia lagi yang isinya bener2 perasaan gua yg gua ga sensor huahahaha. Tadi abis baca2 jadi terharu, hehe terharu ama diri sendiri. Lucu juga gua ngisinya, pergumulan2 pas FYP, ama JH, itu blog cuman gua tulis kalo gua uda bener2 ga tahan lagi hehehe, jadi isinya dikit.

Nih websitenya kalo penasaran:
http://je7ca.spaces.live.com/default.aspx

Kalo ga bisa buka, jgn salahkan gua ya hohoho.....

Ssst....itu websitenya gua restricted sebenernya jadi pada ga bisa liat juga. hohoho

Battlefield of the Mind

Recently I am reading a book, called the title of this post. Actually I have another book given by my father: Change your thinking, change your life. I believe that mind is the main controller in our life. It is always a choice whether to feel happy today or to feel sad. Every battle is actually a choice.

Yesterday I was watching Get Smart! with an old friend of mine. Feel good to meet him, I can say that his life is full of live and joy (he's preparing for his marriage). So actually I felt the energy, until they started to talk about the job and their people at the office.

My mood is in a very bad shape for the last 4-5 years. I will do whatever I feel like to do. And I felt lazy most of the time. So it ended up with me doing nothing or doing useless thing, such as sleeping, watching korean drama, or playing games.

Lately, I was in the 'thinking' mode, I don't know whether this is better or even worse for me. I used to be a cheerful girl, think about nothing except happiness. The other me is the one who suggest me to think me, but it ended me to be self-pity. Sigh.... I don't know why.

I just wondering whether it;s better to blog or write down in a diary. It will give sentimental value with hand writing. But I doubt that I will read that one again, blogging is more practical.

Jobs Hunting is tiring

It's not just tiring but it's as well difficult and stressfull. I don't know whether it's trully that difficult or it's just me, too choosy or perhaps I really do not want to work. Sigh.....I am really tired looking for one. I am really not good at interview. I am not good at talking to people, that's why I am blogging. It does help me to release my feeling, which I hope the other person is reading this to know me better, but actually he doesn't. but anyway, I won't force him, it's shd be his free will if he wants to know me.

I just feel that I don't want to work. I just want to stay home do my stuff. People do this all the time, for housewife/mom, right? So why can't I ? What's wrong with that? He was saying that I am running away from works, because it was the only place that I am not protected, I need to work on my own. So what? What's wrong of wanting to be protected? Sigh....I felt so difficult, if I am forcing myself to be brave, eventhough I am not, do you think that I am lying to myself? What the other people want more of me? I am tired of following him. Sigh.... I really don't know at this point of time. He doubts, so do I right now, he's never satisfied. Sigh.....

Kungfu Panda

Yup I have just watched it at Vivo City. We arrived there at 6.30 and we bought the 6 o'clock ticks, since the 8 o'clock one is also left with first row seats. It was very expensive, cost us 10 dolars per ticks.

The Panda is sooo...... fat and funny. Hahaha.... he can't touch or even see his own toes! Too big belly..... And really food oriented. A good noodle maker (make me want to eat noodle now slurrrp.....). He is so smart in knowledge, he knows everything in the historical things they had in the Jade Palace. And still the mysterious Wu Xi finger hold which ended the war, I still do not know how he can learn the hold and how can the hold so powerful. Enough for now... But I am still thinking what is the point of the story. Want to eat noodle now.

Solicite

I never felt like this before. Today, I was really out of the world. I did not have people to converse with, no communication with normal people at all. I wrote friendster message to my old friend, chatted with 2 friends, and that's all. Virtual communication. Received sms from JH in the morning, 2 in the afternoon, 1 is from my mom asking how I am doing, and the other from a junior who changed her hp number haha.... I did not face anyone until 8pm? It was when JH came to have dinner at Botak jones. I cooked my lunch and dinner (I did not have any breakfast), so totally at home all day.

And I felt sick, headache. Haha...dunno whether this is true sickness or just because lack of interaction with human beings.

At Indonesia, at least I have my mom to talk with or perhaps my maids? Civilization exists there, but not at this house, nobody back home until 7.30pm perhaps? Haha....yup I felt lonely here.

I watched another Korean drama on channel U, because I was too boring to watch the quiz (The Price is Right) 2 times a day, in the afternoon and evening at channel 5. The girl on the movie was being fired as well and started to look for a new job, just like me! But she was very enthusiastic to find one (not like me). Maybe I have to follow the spirit. I still do not understand why I felt so desperate and a failure, I try to convince myself that I am not that bad, but the thought always come, specially when I am lonely, felt like talking to myself. Hiks......

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Beberapa hari ini bener2 nge-slack banget. Ga cari kerja sama sekali. Di rumah, berenang, masak-masak ato nge-browsing internet. Kemaren ini maen Hanna Montana di websitenya, game kuno bikin stress. Terus upload2 semua poto jalan2 ke amrik di facebook, hari ini maen2 game di facebook. Duh, kepala ampe pusing gara2 kebanyakan maen.

Rasanya malas sekali buat cari kerja, ga tau. Abis bener2 ga niat banget, pengen jadi admin assistant cuman mau gimana, gajinya kecil, hiks....Sedih banget.....ga direstuin ortu. Jadi mau cari kerjaan engineer juga males2an ga niat. Gua sendiri juga bingung, sebenernya gua ini mau jadi apa sih, mau ambil master juga angot2an, iya-iya ngga, duh ga jelas banget.

Berenang!

Setelah menunda2 berenang, akhirnya pagi ini pas bangun lgs punya feeling buat berenang, meski agak dingin2 tapi tetep nekad! Ternyata pas kleuar, udaranya panas bo! Matahari lumyan menyengat kulit. Dengan setengah sadar (karena abis bangun tidur), berjalan menuju swimming complex. Jadi lupa-lupa inget jalan ke sana. Terus lupa2 cara beli karcis berenang, n lupa kalo lokernya musti pake 20 cent. Jadinya balik lagi ke depan buat tuker duit.

Pas pertama kali nyemplung, berpikir, buat berenang 10 kali bolak balik. Daari dulu tuh yang namanya berenang tuh maen air doank, ga pernah ditargetin musti bolak balik berapa kali. Hahaha...yah gara2 ada seorang temen kuliah yg kalo berenang gitu, jadi ikut2an lah. Abis kalo dipikir2 kalo ga renang ditargetin, yg ada berendem lama doank di situ hahaha...

Pas pertama kali berenang tadi, kok rasanya lama.....banget ga sampe2 ujung. Terus berpikir, ya uda 5 kali aja deh bolak balik. Terus berenang balik, mikir lagi, duh ini jauh kolamnya, 2.5 kali aja uda cape kali. Hahaha...terus2 dikurangin jatahnya. Akhirnya gua berenang .... jeng jeng .... 7 kali bolak balik. Dengan bangga hehhee..... Selama berenang terus memotivasi diri hehehe, asal pelan2 yg penting selamat. Gw kalo berenang tuh lelet sekali, ga tau dari dulu uda ganti tempat ngeles berkali2 tetep aja ga ada kemajuan. Tapi yg gua mau achieve adalah gua olah raga! Biar lelet yg penting semua bada bergerak! Hahaha....

Terus pulangnya mampir fair price, mau bikin rujak pengantin, beli bahan2 (kayak pecel gitu lah). Gua tak menyangka jam 10.30 itu emang waktunya org2 belanja, tuh fair price rame banget bo! Banyak ibu2, mbak2, ama kakek2 belanja. Terus pulang n masak. Puas deh! Tapi belon dicuci hehehe, males cuci piringnya.